Thursday, June 30, 2005
yes!! exams are finally over, who cares abt maths s tmr...haha, it's not counted!! it'll prob be e only paper i'll be e most awake for, cos it's held in e afternoon!! haha...it's so weird to haf so many ppl come online now, when msn was like a ghost town a few days back...lol:)
went to town tdy right aft our paper ended...met up serene yeo aft having lunch with e 3 of them...haha...it's been so long since i met her!! but she's still e same old self...din change much...wanted to watch a movie together, so we were queuing up at cine when this guy came up to both of us n presented us with a pair of free tickets!! haha, wad luck!! so we gladly accepted the tix and went to watch our free movie...haha:) the movie started at 5, so we had a lot of time to walk ard b4 tt...
ended up at taka playing e ps2 games there...haha...it was a pretty funny sight to see so grown up ppl playin e games, but we had so much difficulty trying to figure out wad each button meant!! lol:) so swaku...we watched 'mr n mrs smith'...not too bad, pretty funny...angelina jolie's so chio!! omg!! she n brad pitt looked so compatible onscreen!! haha, explains all e rumours...there was this guy 2 seats away from serene who kept laughing n making a lot of noise thruout e entire show...haha, bet he enjoyed e movie e most...so involved in all e scenes!! lol:) aft tt, we were at heeren cos she wanted to look for earrings when i saw e vj tt girl!! yes, e very pretty one!! haha, at least i think it was her!! lol:) din haf a gd chance to take a real gd look at her, but she doesn't look at pretty as she did on e court...tink it's e adidas outfit tt did e trick!! haha...she's not as attractive in home clothes anymore...
orchard was flooded with jc students tdy...majority coming from ac n nj, surprisingly...haha...we wanted to haf dinner out tdy, but serene yeo couldn't decide wad to eat! she's so fussy!! so in e end, we both decided to go home for dinner...haha, tt woman's super indecisive...used to go to her house so often back in sec sch to play badminton...though she's always able to overpower me...haha, we were e best doubles partner k!! haha, cos she can always cover e back, while i'll juz station at e front to take all e net shots...lol:) even won this mini intraclass comp b4...haha, n she whacked my head with e shuttle twice during 1 match, cos she wanted to give e opps some pts...so she tried aiming for e net, but got my head instead...lol:) there's always something to laugh abt when she's ard, either with her or at her...haha, hope she doesn't return to aus too soon...
missed call tdy, hope it's not true...
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
had a lot of dreams last night, more than usual. the reason why i need to slp so much it's cos i'm always dreaming when i slp...so need a longer time to recharge...can't blame me for being a pig:) haha...i can only rmb a few sections here n there, cos i woke up so many times...
there was this pretty scary part wen i was stranded in some ulu part of sg with someone whom i can't rmb alr. then, char was there too...she got angry with me for some reason...then me n tt other person was desperately trying to hail a cab cos we were rushing for tuition...see, this is wad intensive tuition does to e mind, even in dreamland i'm reminded abt it...lol:) finally, we managed to get a cab when tuition time was almost over...i was seated at the back, next to the next and fel was next to me. someone else, whom i also forget but rmb knowing in the dream was seated next to e driver. tt makes 3 of us in the cab with the driver. next to fel was this pale blue nike shoe bag, with a big patch of blood stain on it!! along the taxi ride, i kept my eyes fixed on it...cos something inside kept moving...i thot it was a human hand at first, then when we finally had the guts to open it, a miniature sized version of the cab driver suddenly popped out and gave us all a big shop. he looked like he was out to kill me!! then, i woke up...
drifting back to slp again...i was in another place this time. something of a shopping mall...saw some j1s doing a part time job with magnolia...haha, started sniggering at them...then i realised tt zhon yun n ed were there too...took me a while to recognise them...aft tt, i somehow found out tt e student of ac were doing some part time-cum-cip thing organised for magnolia. they were supposed to work from 10-8, but will only get paid $10 for their effort!! haha, my immediate reaction was to justify their grievences and talk it out with ac's principal. even though i've never met her b4, i did meet someone who was e principal of ac in my dreams...haha, i confronted her abt e issue, n realised tt the sch will get to keep the rest of their pay, giving them only a $10 payoff for the work done. the meeting yielded no results, cos i failed to convince her to give all the students their full pay...lol:) the dream din end there...aft tt, i went back to the mall for...a haircut! haha...it was some cheapo neighbourhood hairdressing shop n the hairdresser screwed up my hair. made it longer instead of shorter...gave me shoulder length hair with slight curls at the bottom!! so ugly!! so in the end, he had to recut it for me...haha, but i nv got to see the outcome...got woken up again...
the last time i drifted back to slp, i dreamt of myself, on my bed, tossing ard with someone else next to me...not on each other, but juz lying next to each other...can't rmb who alr...we were juz happily chatting away when aaron suddenly appeared!! haha, the weirdest ppl appear in dreams...then, we tried to make him perform britney spears' songs for us...he obliged surprisingly, but ended up singing a chinese song instead!! haha, he was standing in front of my bed, singing for both of us...when he finished with his song, he immediately disappeared!! then, we went back to our talking, juz mucking ard in bed, when zhon yun appeared once more!! aha, she made me get out of bed once more....n i was so reluctant to get up...while she was leading me to somewhere, the alarm rang...end of stories:)
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Saturday, June 25, 2005
my mum was in a real gd mood this morn, so she brought e whole family to ding tai feng at paragon for lunch!! yum:) we ordered so much food, cos we wanted to hit $40 so that we could get tat free bowl of hot and sour soup. pretty cheapskate right, haha:) it was my dad n sis's first visit to the place. haha, swakus. so me n my mum ended up ordering all our fav food while those 2 had to eat wadever we ordered:) hahaha...by the time we left, the queue had alr built up...
stopped by NTUC on our way back, stocked up on much needed groceries. my sis, who is always at home, played hide n seek with e whole family on her rare outings to e supermark with us. we couldn't find her when we were at the cashier, and my dad had to make another trip inside to locate her. and guess wad, she was still holding on to a basket of goods. so it was another round of queueing at the cashiers. such a waste of time.
tmr's e last day of hols, and i'm still not done with my revision. used to dread the hols in e past, cos it was so boring n stuff...but tis hols, i'm hoping for it to end later. i'm not looking forward to going back to sch a single bit. i'm still attached to this easy, hassle-free, no burden type of lifestyle hols bring. love going to bed and awaking at anytime i desire; love idling ard and living life the way i want it to. but it's ending...v soon. i'll really miss it...come to see a lot of stuff during this period, lost a lot, gained little. it's still proving to be an eye-opening time even wen it's abt to end.
you taught me to look further and read more, i did. but i realised things which i wished i was left in the dark abt. sensitivity isn't always a bad thing. you just need to be able to deal with the effects it brings. i got more than i seeked.
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
i dun haf much long term dreams, but short term ones, ya!! been having this dream for a pretty long while alr, though i doubt it'll come true. still, no harm having a little hope abt it to perk e spirit up.
in the dream, i will be standing there as usual, waiting for this person to walk out from the 'age-d' lobby. like in dreams, e particular someone's face is always a blur. a famaliar stranger. someone whom u know, yet can't claim tt u know all that well too. then, we'd juz head for e dark clouds n maybe get struck by lightning along e way. soon, a silver lining begins to appear, and we're separated, but not for long. when e clouds have dispersed and we're free to go, it's time for a magic carpet ride. we're brought to the playground where swings and slides are aplenty. seated on a carousel, we seem to be going round in circles. sometimes getting lost in e crowd, we both lose our way. when it's time to go, i get chauffered to the lemon farm. at the farm, there's a pond with no fish; a treadmill with no plug; an escalator with no handles. the dream ends there...hmm, funny dream.
one thing i've come to learnt in jc: nv take things at their surface value....
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got woken up at a record-breaking time of 7.30am tdy!! haha, i'm so proud of myself, actually managed to kick myself out of my bed...why did i wake up so early for?? cos my sis wanted to eat ya kun kaya toast, so she got e whole jean gang down with her to have it for breakfast...my eyes were half-closed la!! haha...after tdy's ordeal, i'm beginning to wonder how i'm going to be able to wake up for sch next wk!! i gotta get up even earlier, esp since i betta start going for assembly, dun wanna play ard, later kenna banned from e exam hall, not worth e sacrifice...haha:) so yup, tt means i gotta wake up at...forgot wat time assembly is alr!! argh, tink it's at 7.40...tt means i'll prob haf to arise half an hr b4 tt...
anyway, aft we got back from ya kun, e first thing i did was plop myself back to bed. i really couldn't tahan it anymore....aha, initially asked my sis to wake me up in an hr's time, but she couldn't wake me up. so i ended up sleeping an additional hr! heh:) aft tt, i had to pry my eyelids open. still, my head was grogy...stumbled all e way to e living room...haha...muz be due to e lack of sleep!!
to e person who juz had her hair cut, i hope it's as nice as my hairstyle!! but i guess it'd haf to be the case for you to get mistaken for me!! haha:) finally u acknowledge me as a prof!! haha, i'm truly honoured!! can't take back ur words now!! lol:)
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
it isn't a gd time, but i still went shopping this morning. thot i'd finish buyin my stuff by 2, tt was too ambitious a thot. by the time i reached home was 4 plus alr!! sucks, tt means 1 day less for my revision. anyway, bought myself a new sling bag tdy...my old black nike bag has disappeared aft i sent it for washing abt a wk back...it's getting old n worn out aft so many yrs...got a gd ole hole at e bottom of e bag which will grow bigger in time. so yup, decided to buy myself a new one tdy, to take away e burden from my old bag when it resurfaces again. haha...almost bought myself a squash racket at e same time, but din do so in the end. din really fancy any particular design, plus e price din feel right too, so gave tt idea up. went on to get myself a new wallet aft tt...haha, been wanting to get myself a more masculine leather wallet for quite some time alr...so decided to get myself one since i was in e mood for it tdy...haha...din get the ex designs, bought a simple, youngish wallet from the wallet shop...although e more ex brands' leather had a better feel to it, i believe this is juz a phase i'm going thru at e moment and will get sick of it soon enuf. so went for e cheaper, more practical option. it has e words "shut up" printed on e top section which i can show to ppl whom i want to say tt word to. conserve my saliva eh?! haha, my sis came up wit tt brilliant idea!!
i jus realised tt all e shopping i've done this entire hols was done in this wk alone!! haha...went for tis sports apparel fair at jurong on mon with my mum...haha, needed a driver n my atm n who else would fit e bill better than parents, right?! bought a singlet, pair of shorts n this other shirt, all from nike. haha, better still, e nike shirt's design was so appealing tt my mum bought e exact same shirt, juz in a bigger size. haha, i shud arrange to wear it out with her someday, it'll be so fun!!
tink e time of e month is coming...been having erratic moodswings this past wk...e most serious bout of it in a v long while. plus i got this huge cravin for food!! can't stop stuffing foodstuffs into my mouth...been shooting my mouth off too...no wonder my sis can't stand me sometimes...betta start zipping it up...haha:)
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frankly, i'm so sick n tired of it all. maybe i'm overly eager abt it, and you don't share the same view as i do. but while i'm fighting my guts out here, you're doing nothing there. to say i'm disappointed is an understatement. i don't expect you to fully understand the pt i'm trying to make here, but i hope you'll try. this'll be the last time i'm going to try. it was a last go. since it din work out, i'm going to give up trying from now onwards. it's exhausting it's purely a one-sided thing. you're ignorant abt my feelings. it shudn't haf dragged on for so long, it shud haf ended tt day. the full stop is long overdue...
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
study fatigue, simple as it is. the books have become a bane instead of a boon. it's so diff to sit down n look thru the disgusting pile of ws which nv seem to end. esp not when u've completely lost all enthusiasm for it.
frankly, i've tried so hard, i'm sick of trying anymore. how many times can u climb up aft fallin n not fear another trip? i'm so tempted to try once more, but my gut tells me, it's going to be another fruitless attempt. why bother trying? i did my best, but it wasn't appreciated. stop wasting e effort.
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oh no!! terrible news!! henin's lost her 1st round match!!! why oh why oh why??!! there'll be 1 lesser person capable of disposing the W monsters and sharapova!! tt's terrible!! can't believe it...she shud have been able to win...maybe her opp was jus too gd for her...her opp was in-form tdy, while she's out of form!! argh!! it's ok, it's ok, she'll bounce back next yr and WIN the title!! she'll be e next WIMBLEDON champ!! yes she will!! this yr, she was juz careless...giving someone else out there to win the title b4 she does!! okok, let's juz hope the men's draw will turn out more optismistic n not be as disappointing as e women's draw was...hope for the best now...
anw, i finally did it!! did wat? haha, i finally got my single digit score for hearts!! tt's right, a single digit score of 9!! haha, it's e biggest single no ard, but it's still a great achievement!! i can't believe i did it!! haha, i'm a genius!! tt's right, tdy's results juz confirmed it further!! lol:) yes yes yes...i used to (note e "d" in useD) tink tt this sort of thing would only occur in dreams...but NO!! haha, i've proved myself, n everyone else who thinks tt way as well, wrong!! haha...i'm so proud of myself!! next time i muz set a higher target...i'll go for a score of 8 next time!! yes!! jia you!!
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habits don't die hard like what most ppl say. they actually come and disappear faster than you think they do. all you need is some time to condition your mind to ignore and neglect it's existence, and before you know it, poof, it's gone. it's all in e mind that you experience a sense of uneasiness. and for a period of time, e mind is unused to it not being there when it used to. tt sense of loss induces us to think tt it's impossible to do without tt particular habit of ours. but truth is, the brain has a much larger capacity than we actually know. only because we're dealing with unfamaliar territory doesn't mean we can't make it there. just because we dunno how to stretch the brain doesn't mean we shouldn't try. it's not simple to induce ourselves to let it go, but when we do, we won't even realise it's gone. if it was as easy as it seemed, it won't be called a habit alr.
i din see it as a habit, reading too much too often into it. i shud jus let it pass. time can heal all wounds, it can form new habits to replace old ones too. in time, you won't even realise that you've alr learnt to let it all go...
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
finally chem tuition has ended. whew, sigh of relieve. in a way, i'm thankful for it, cos it helped kickstart my revision for chem, otherwise, i'd haf nv begun. anyway, my dad's back from malaysia...din get to see him until late at night when i came back from coffee bean. yup, went to coffee bean aft dinner...but not to do any work...brought along my trusty laptop with me instead of my notes...needed some time away from everyone else...somewhere to juz chill out n watch e world go by...so i bought myself a cup of tea n sat myself down for a few hrs, playing games on my laptop, hearts predominantly, occasionally glancing at e passerbys who would stare back at me. something totally embarassing happened while i was there...juz came out from e girls toilet when this middle-aged lady was walking towards me. as you see, 6th ave arranges their toilets such that e guys n girls toilets are situated at e 2 ends of the lift lobby. so she started staring at me. "isn't the ladies here?" she casually remarked, not expecting any re. ok, i got her pt, she mistook me for a guy, tt's y she was confused n wondered if she made a mistake. out of courtesy, i replied her, "yes, this is e ladies." then she realised her mistake n started apologising...this is e 1st time i've ever been mistaken so openly for someone of e opp sex in a very long while. came as a surprise to me...but with this experience, maybe i'll play along e next time it happens, if it ever does happen again in e future...i shud juz stare back at e person, n in my lowest possible voice reply, "no, this is e gents"...haha...tt's pretty mean...
i've juz been shed light on some things. my perception of e ppl involved have changed. i've been feeling my way ard in a dark tunnel all this while, n tdy's e 1st time i'm actually seeing light at e end of the tunnel. my new found knowledge makes e old me feel like a fool. how could i haf been so blind to it all? even my sis agrees with my being angry abt it. ur actions dun justify ur words. i was promised a comedy, but i end up in the wrong theatre and is made to watch a tear-jerker instead. it's a real disappointment. the signs were obvious, but i chose to ignore it. now i see e whole pic n realise how silly i've been all these while. really, i feel like asking you, why? if it was this way, why did you act tt way? i can't read ur minds, n i shud stop these fruitless attempts to do so anymore.
the slack one went to rest at 8:43 AM
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
felt v lethargic e whole of tdy...paced up n down e house, though it's not very big in e first place...juz kept walking ard e house, not knowing wad to do...study, slp, swim, tennis, tv, internet...none of them felt right...life seems so monotonous now...same daily routine...wkends n wkdays seem e same to me...i need something so spice up my boring life...but how to?? when e CTs r juz a wk away...oh manz...dun wanna see anymore red marks in my report card!!! finally chem tuition's ending tmr...n it juz has to end with a bang!! tuition's at 10 am tmr!! tt means i gotta wake up at e ungodly hr of 9am or earlier!! i haven't been awake b4 11 for e past few days...haha...i'll juz be half dead at tuition tmr...maybe i'll go home n nap aft tt...lol:) hols r meant for slping right, n getting rid of those dark rings which haf accumulated over e term...haha...i really wonder how i'm going to be able to wake up for sch when it reopens...prob haf to buy new alarm clocks to wake me up...lol...
anw, to my fren whose house is nearly my 2nd house...sorry abt e heart attack tt day...dunno wad got into me...feel bad abt causing u to lose slp...i muz be one of e elite few capable of doing tt to u...n e 1st gal at tt too!! thks for everything tt u've done.
the slack one went to rest at 8:51 AM
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Friday, June 17, 2005
woke up esp early tdy...kk, not by much, juz an hr earlier than e past few days...haha...went down to den's house aft tt...on e way there, e rain started pouring down v heavily!! luckily i was alr at toh yi there, so managed to take shelter under one of e blks while i called den to come pick me up!! haha...when she came, e downpour became a drizzle, n shortly aftward, there was no more rain!! oh man, i feel so cheated by e weather, play me out like tt...haha:)
we were supposed to study together...but we went to surf e net first b4 having lunch...went to play e piano aft tt...haha, played a duet with her:"12 days of x'mas"...oh man, i sucked at it..felt so bad having to make her repeat so many times cos of my many mistakes...din realise how rusty i was till tdy...so laopok my piano skills...took my ages to get e 1st 6 or 8 bars right...haha...so paiseh...nvm, i'll make sure i'll learn it well so tt next time, we can play it smoothly together, n make fel sing e accompanyment during x'mas!! haha...tt's something exciting to look 4ward to...so aft tt, we tried to do some studying aft tt...i stared at e bio notes for a while but nothing went it...they shud change e bio dept to e insomnia-be-gone dept instead...reading thru e notes can be so slp-inducing!! so hard to conc n get e facts into my head...den had a hard time trying to study too!! haha, she couldn't focus as well!! lol:) in e end, we both surrendered...turned to play uno instead!! haha...haven't played so much uno for so long...we were always short of one colour so she'd purposely change e card on e discard deck to e colour i din haf, n i'd do likewise...it took so long for either of us to game...had to shuffle e deck a pretty lot of times...haha...but it was real fun...so gek sim, yet thrilling at e same time!! when her sis came back, we changed to asshole taidee instead...lol...i was e asshole for a record-breaking no of times ah!! oh man...no skill alr...used to be real pro at it in e past...but now's a totally diff story!! haha:) her mum sent me home aft tt, her sis also came along...haha, her whole family came to send me off...so honoured eh?! now i know why den's such a chatterbox...cos it's in her genes...inherited characteristic...lol...
find myself addicted to hearts nowadays...love playin it on my com every night...trying to get a single-digit score everytime...haha, although tt's pretty impossible...e nearest i've ever been to it is 20 pts...which is still pretty far away though...but i'm glad tt my presence is being missed...nothing beats tt right?! haha, startin to treasure me now tt i'm no longer ard eh?? heh...dun u regret not appreciating me more when i was ard?
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got a new blog skin...got tired of my tennis one...haha... but can't find a newer, nicer tennis skin to replace e old one...guess e old skin was one of e best ard...tt's y it's so hard to find a replacement for it...wad can i say? i've got great taste!! haha...anyway, this new skin is equally great!! all e food looks so delicious...can see myself drooling all over it alr...haha...plus e bubblegum cartoon is so adorable too!! haha...great taste once more!! lol:)
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
Before you cry...C.O.
Boy:
No sense, no style,
Said I loved you for a little.
When you cried no...
High speed became go slow.
Come back this time,
Wishful thinking's gonna make you mine.
Truth turns to shock,
Got no more room for love.
I hope you hear me,
Can't stand you next to me...
Get lost goodbye,
I'll smile before you cry...
Girl:
I love you baby,
Oh please don't hate me.
You're feeling a little sad tonight,
But you'll be alright. (x3)
Boy:
No sense, no style,
Said I loved you for a little.
When you cried no...
High speed became go slow.
Come back this time,
Wishful thinking's gonna make you mine.
Truth turns to shock,
Got no more room for love.
I hope you hear me,
Can't stand you next to me...
Get lost goodbye,
I'll smile before you cry...
Girl:
I love you baby,
Oh please don't hate me.
You're feeling a little sad tonight,
But you'll be alright. (x3)
the slack one went to rest at 9:57 AM
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sometimes i suspect myself to be anaemic...despite sleeping for 12 hrs everyday, i still tire out easily!! felt like sleeping so many times during tuition tdy...luckily there's a break from chem tmr...anyway, went down this aftnoon to e pool...prob my 2nd time down there since they repaired it...it doesn't look much diff to me actually, except tt e damaged tiles have been changed...still, i had e luxury of e whole pool to myself...heh...shiok man...there was hardly anyone ard too, except for this angmoh guy who was suntanning nearby whose face i din get to see at all cos he was lying down on e chair. the sun was really strong tdy...really felt like suntanning too...haha, join e angmoh guy...but din in e end...had to rush for chem tuition, plus i felt pretty weird suntanning in my full-body swimmin costume, so gave tt idea up...lol:) actually thot of goin to malacca with my uncle n cousins this wkend, but can't afford to skip tuition, besides, my dad's not in town too...yup, guess i'll juz hafta stay back in little sg den...maybe they can dapao some food back from malacca for me!! e meeting w pear n all got cancelled again!! this is e 3rd time alr!! do they seriously wanna meet up i wonder.
the slack one went to rest at 7:24 AM
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
been having tuition everyday of e wk, sometimes even 2 in a day. so sick to tuition now...haven't had so much tuition lessons since a v long time ago, n now i'm beginning to see why i hated it so much in e past!! argh, no wonder it's called intensive, it's held everyday of e wk!! omg!! at least we're half way thru it...3 down, 3 more to go!!
anw, den's back...n tdy was her 1st chem lesson...she really made her presence felt...we couldn't stop talking n laughing in class tdy...n her motor mouth nv ceased operation for e whole duration of e lesson!! her saliva supply is endless!!
it feels away longer than it really is, n it hasn't been like this for a v long while. i dun ask for much, but i wanna know, are u feeling this way too?
the slack one went to rest at 7:46 AM
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
i juz wanna say, i miss you. i never thot i'd say this, but i do. i dun even say this to my parents nor my sis, so appreciate it!! it's such an honour!!!!
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Monday, June 13, 2005
went cycling this morn b4 going for my 2 tuitions. haha, it's been so long since i last went there, over a wk man...miss e place, lol...it's always gd to go there on wkdays...e crowd is gone n u haf almost e whole track to urself...can be a hell rider w/o worrying abt crashing into anyone!! haha...
had e first chem tuition tdy...quite a waste of time, cos she was goin thru a subj tt nj hasn't taught yet, so we're pretty clueless as to wad's goin on durin lessons...haha, lucky for e rest of e class too...from tmr onwards, when she starts going thru topics tt we're tested, i'm sure e class's progress will be v slow, cos i'm sure we'll throw a lot of questions at her!! haha, we make up e class once more:) i thot e teacher was pretty cute, though not everyone thinks alike...i like her betta than jessie koh...think her actions n all r v funny...she's as lazy as us too!! haha:) chem tuition for e whole wk...oh no!! lol:)
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Sunday, June 12, 2005
so fast n e 2nd wk of e hols is over alr...can't believe time passes so quickly...b4 i know it, sch'll be over alr...it din feel like too long ago tt i entered jc, n soon, it'll all be over. while i hated coming to nj initially, looking back now, i'm thankful i came. in many ways, more than i would know, i gained more than i lost. if i din come to nj, i wouldn't be able to enjoy all e things i haf tdy. if i had to choose again, i'd still choose nj over ac, although it took me a lot of time to adapt to nj. heh, it's an intelligent move only wise ppl make!!
anyway, i haven't really revised a lot so far, not as much as i'd like to...i guess i'll juz be depending a lot on tuition for revision. i'm really thankful for tuition, cos at least it gets me started on my work, n forces me to do questions, otherwise, i have wouldn't start at all...past 2 wks was phy tuition, n next wk it'll be chem plus phy!! whew, tt's quite a lot of lessons to attend...
ran into ck at CFB tdy...din know he was so sick till i saw him tdy...haha, juz hope tt he'll recover soon...he's not e only 1 who's sick, bek's sick too...am i next on e list?? haha:) i juz wanna say, thanx for coming all e way down tdy. i din realise how far it was for you, n i truly appreciate ur efforts. maybe next time it shud be my turn to travel:) n i'll try to find my way there first, b4 saying "dunno". if i get lost, u betta come n get me cos i really dunno my way ard tt area!! i guess i'm going to be real broke in e coming wk...lol...all cos i lost a bet...paid for all e food tdy, while e tea was sponsored. tried to be adventurous n chose a tea flavour known as : fruit garden, which turned out to be a disaster. e colour of e tea was blood red, n e taste was...unique. it was real sour, prob from all e fruits used, n i could hardly finish 2 cups. was a real waste of money. on e way to e bus-stop, we discovered tt e starbucks voucher was expiring tdy!! i muz say, wad luck!! haha...so we turned back n headed for starbucks to get our frappacino...wanted to be adventurous once more, n tried e rhumba flavour...tdy's juz a day of poor choices...caramel n mocha flavour tastes so much nicer...had another pint of haagen-daaz again...it's becoming a staple diet whenever we go to holland v...betta go do some exercise tmr!!
saw denise keller n fiona xie filming at holland v tdy...they were juz walking briskly down e rd outside CFB, n they disappeared swiftly aft tt...denise keller looks so aloof...so much attitude...e type tt puts ppl, or rather me off. not v impressed by her. but i gotta admit, they're both damn slim!! haha...i prob haf to starve for 1 month to get their figure...lol...
cheers to frappacino!!
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
went to work at ngee ann city tdy...din realise tt it was held in conjunction with a 933 concert!! oh man, when i reached e venue, i saw FIR there rehearsing away...it's so rare to get to see them so upclose n no big crowd ard u to make it feel like a full-blown global warming effect come early. if i knew b4hand, i'd haf been armed with my camera, an autograph bk n a marker at least!! argh...another lost opportunity. tanya chua, ah sang, cai chun jia were also there too to perform, though by e time they appeared, everyone else was also there alr!!
got to work w e same bunch of ppl i worked w last yr. it was kinda a mixed feeling to see them again. when e previous job ended, i often thot of them as ppl whom i'd only meet in chance encounters, or might nv see them again. to be reunited w them tdy felt pretty amazing. business wasn't too bad when e day started, cos ppl were rushing to buy e cartons of fruit tree drinks to exchange for priority tickets to e concert. however, when all e 200 seats were taken up, our business went downhill too...there were long periods where there was absolutely no customer at all. so i transferred to e balloon sector once in a while, making balloons n distributing them to e little kids n some adults ard who wanted them. time passed faster with e balloons, it beats standing there doing nothing n juz waiting for e next customer to walk towards u.
business started to pick up when e concert started n everyone became thirsty. e person in charge was going to pack e cartons of drinks pack to e company alr, when all e customers began rolling in. we managed to sell all e drinks we had, which was a feat we nv thot could be accomplished judgin by sales during e day. haha, everyone was so delighted abt clearing all e stocks. we even had free drinks to bring home too...hee hee, employee benefit eh?! there was this lady who patronised our stall tdy who looks like a replicate of hsiang huan. she looks more like hsiang huan's sister than her real sis does. i was so tempted to go up n take a pic with her n show it to. it's amazing how 2 ppl can look so alike n yet not be blood related in any way. n i discovered tdy tt there are a lot of chinese ppl in our env. by tt i mean ppl from china. more than half e customers we had were from china n had tt accent. some of their accent was so strong i could hardly understand a single word they said!! or maybe it's cos they're more fanatic over such concerts compared to sg, hence making them e majority grp there. e event tdy made me see 1 more disgusting side of humans, in general. during e concert, where dustbins are far n extinct, customers or non-customers would juz leave their empty bottles n cartons ard our display rack or on e cardboard boxes when we were too preoccupied with other stuff. with tt, their job is done, n we're left with e dirty task of clearing up aft them. it's so irresponsible. doesn't mean tt u can leave ur things lying ard aft it has served it purpose, juz so tt u can get rid of it. maybe they haven't realised but dustbins aren't really an endangered species in sg, in fact, they're in abundance. it really doesn't hurt to hold it for a longer time while u try to search for a dust-bin round e corner.
anyway, yi zhen offered me another job for next wkend, this time, e pay's $80 a day, which is much betta than tdy's pay, but duh, e hrs are much longer. dun tink i'm game for tt job though, it's time to seriously hit e bks now, plus it's all e way at tampines...can u imagine e travelling time involved? n i'm getting a pimple outbreak now...muz be from all e makeup tdy, which isn't a lot to start with. maybe it's some allergy, oh no!
getting addicted to camera obscura's songs...it's a scottish band, not v popular in sg...kept on humming their songs in my head during work tdy...even had this urge to listen to it during work...lol:) bad influence!! heard this lyrics from a song on my way home juz now being played on e radio...
if i said ur body was hot, would u bear a grudge against me?
if i said i was thirsty, would u flow ur love to quench my thirst?
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Friday, June 10, 2005
dream less, appreciate e present, cos it's never always present.
gotta go work tmr at taka...1 day job to earn some extra cash...hopefully i won't run into any famaliar faces...heh...will feel paiseh...supposed to meet grace n gang tdy, but e meeting got postponed once more...pear is always not free, n we're always cancelling e appts cos of her. this isn't e 1st time alr, feeling pretty pissed by it.
i hardly say it, so treasure it when i do.
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
i've juz found a new love of my life, my hair!! haha...i'm going to say this no matter how egoistical it may sound, i really really really love my hairstyle!! haha, this is e craziest style i've eva gone for, a v big risk, but it turned out to be a worthy one! oh man, how many ppl can pull it off?? a countable few, n i'm one of e lucky ones!! haha...my beautiful hair, how i wish it could remain this way forever...n not grow long, so i won't haf to trim it, n risk losing it...haha...
kk, enuf bout my crown of pride n glory...slept thru my dental appt this morn, haha, had to shift it to tmr...went to collect e hamsters from my aunt's house aft tt, all e way in pasir ris!! such a long way there...but e hammys are such darlings!! they're so cute i tell u...haha, i miss them when they're gone...the cutie-pies curl up when they slp which makes them even more adorable!! despite rushing back home, i still made den wait at e bus-stop for me for a gd 40 mins...haha, she's always waiting for me at bus-stops...i din expect her to be there tt early either...but 1 thing bout her tt always amazes me is her ability to read me. she can read me like a bk, from my actions n expressions maybe, i dun haf to spell it out to her for her to predict what i'm going to do next, n she's always dead spot-on!! it's a little scary, cos she'll know things tt i thot she doesn't, but it's also something v unique n special. she's e 1st person who's capable of such stuff...haha:)
spent e rest of e day at CFB...doin lots of embarassing stuff!! oh man, i'd nv felt so paiseh b4!! lol...i asked e manager to change tea-leaves for me, even though it wasn't allowed, but she was a real nice lady who kindly obliged on e condition tt i won't do it again. hee...aft tt, i plucked e charger into e socket under e next table which invited lots of stares from e other ppl, esp those wanting to sit at tt particular table...haha...n we had to ask e grp of girls who were occupying e table at tt time to unplug it for us juz b4 we were abt to leave!! lol...even asked this guy if he had a younger bro, cos he resembled someone. haha, tink e next time i return there, i'd betta wear a cap or sunglasses...
everything at present feels like a dream...a nightmare...but i'm juz beginning to see some silver lining. however, gd things dun last. unwillingly, e alarm kicks me out of dreamland n throws me back to reality. i'm so happy to hear some reluctance, but i hope i won't be dealt w too great a shock.
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
i bought this new water bottle from toys r us tdy...haha, not tt i'm in great need of something to contain my thirst quencher, but it's a real gd invention. it has this central coolant which has to be refrigerated for at least a few hr. then u put it in e middle of e bottle, n it'll keep e drink cool, w/o mixing w e drink inside. ain't it so cool?? haha, having cold drinks to drink everyday, tt's so fun!!
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
tdy's e latest day i've slept till since e hols started...woke up at e lovely hr of 12 noon...haha, piggy...suddenly, there's this awakening in me...i feel e need to study!! haha...i'm initimidated by e appending CTs, which i haven't felt ever since sch ended...e amt of revision i haf to do seems endless, n w every passing day, e CTs r drawing nearer, n e clock is slowly counting down...oh no!! bio is horrendous, it's juz tons of stuff to memorise, chem is equally bad, somemore mugging to be done...n phy, well, it still remains as e subj which i haven't managed to comprehend in e many yrs of studying it...sigh, n maths, well, it's a lot of stats stuff to do, which no amt of memory work can help...it's simply abt luck n whether u're able to catch e question...
received an sms from yi zhen tdy...asking me to work over e wkend...heh, why not?!! tt means i also gotta study this whole wk cos i'll be too busy over e wkend to do any work...but anway, it's not yet been confirmed...we'll juz haf to see how it goes...haha, another food fair...oh man...heavenly?!
was studying at holland v tdy...bought 20 cookies from provence...tink e staff there muz think i'm a cookie-nut! haha, but who cares, it's delicious!! got tuition again tmr...oh man, it's getting more n more dreadful...lol:)
it's torturous knowing tt it's coming, but not e exact time.
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Monday, June 06, 2005
had bio lect this morn...super super tired, had to drag myself out of bed...haha, nothin unusual abt tt...was esp tough this morn cos i only slept at 3 am last night...lol...went orchard to watch movie aft tt...some show titled hitchhikers guide around e galaxy or something similar. supposed to be a comedy, but it wasn't really funny...almost fell asleep, esp during e ending part...yawn...went down for phy tuition later...had a terrible time tryin to focus...right from e start of e lesson, i couldn't get wad e teacher was goin on abt...haha...
watched this documentary "super-sized me" yest...its really freaky how large meal portions e americans eat...e director, ate mac's for 30 consecutive days, 3 meals a day...n he ballooned till almost double his size when e 30 days were up. not only did he gain lots more fats, his liver started suffering too...which e docs din anticipate. e film sent a clear msg across tt fast food is detrimental to health. it's scary what side-effects it can bring. think i'll steer clear of mac's for at least e next few days to come...heh heh:)
e invisible clock is silently ticking away...when will it ring?
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
hooray!! henin won won won e french open!! alright dude!! haha...so happy she beat mary pierce...she simply rox...haha:):):) couldn't stand mary pierce thruout e entire tournament. she's got no sportsmanship at all...during quarters, when she was playin davenport, her behaviour was totally, no class. she was serving for match, n it was juz aft a changover...then she started bouncin e ball, all ready to serve. suddenly, she looks to e empire n asks to change her racket. although davenport was frustrated, she let her haf her way. then, she got back on court, n starts bouncin e ball, ready to serve again, when suddenly, she turns to e empire to request for change of balls!! it's so obvious she's trying to stall for time!! davenport was alr waitin to receive serve, n she was alr being so nice to let her change her racket juz now, when she had so much time to do it during e changover! so ya, aft tt incident, i totally dislike her!! haha...n tdy, she got THRASHED by henin!! totally completely thrashed, 6-1, 6-1!! can u believe it!! it's such an incredible scoreline!! muahahaha:) henin was juz all over e place, hitting winners from all over a court...heh heh...n she won! she's e roland garros champ!! yay!! finally, aft e disappointment last yr, she's back!! let's hope she'll win e upcoming grandslams as well!! i'll be supporting her all e way!! haha...
woke up early to watch madagascar tdy at lido...my dad managed to get me some complimentary tickets, somehow...haha, had to drag myself out of bed no matter how tired i was, how can i miss such an offer right?! b4 goin for e movie, me n ck went to take some empty cups from starbucks aft buying our drinks, so tt could smuggle some food inside!! haha, it was so cheap thrill...we went for this buffet, da pao-ed buns, curry puffs n sandwiches inside...haha...but e food was of so low quality...e bun was so hard!! haha, n e chwee queh was yucky too...but since it's free, i shan't complain too much, lol:) e movie was v short...until now, i still dun quite get e storyline, or wad msg they're trying to convey, but e characters were v cute...haha, n some parts were really funny too...
went on a shopping spree in e evening tdy...ppl fly my kite...supposed to meet at 6pm, in e end, 5.40pm then they informed me tt it'll be postponed to next wk, cos someone can't come...by tt time, i was alr in town!! for once when i try to be early, n really am early, e outing gets cancelled...can u believe it?! since i was in town, i thot i might as well do some shopping...haha, spent close to $90 on clothes tdy...4 shirts, 1 pair of board shorts...it's e great sg sale now n everywhere's having discount, otherwise, i also won't bear to anyhow splurge on clothes...bought this converse shirt for $10!! it was such a steal...last piece...haha, then bought a pair of converse board shorts for $25!! haha, i'm so proud of myself for finding such gd bargains man...tt's less than $20 per shirt on e average..whoa...not bad...but i'm not done shopping yet...tdy was only e prelim rounds...when i get my mum to bring me out shopping, tt's when e real deal begins!! heh heh heh:)
clueless i am as to when it'll come, but wonder i do, whether u will gdbye say?
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Friday, June 03, 2005
e 1st wk of hols is almost over, n so far, my revision stands at an alarming 0!! i haven't touched or looked thru any of my worksheets at all!! no sense of remorse setting in yet though...haha...yest was spa, followed by e zhenghua pri camp.
we decided to skip chem remedial cos e camp ic was calling us down to e site alr...guess they were really shorthanded, so yup, we din turn up for chem make-up aft all...went back home to bathe first b4 heading for zhenghua. haha, at my house, fel had to help me pack my bag, so tt we could quickly make our way down, plus she helped to pack my room cos she simply couldn't stand e mess any longer!! haha, i shud haf her at my house more often...hehe...
i got transferred to a floating assistant ic to a station master!! oh man...got stuck at e hockey field, in charge of this game called "animal minefield". my partner was maxine...haha, she really loves kids...every action e kids made tickled her non-stop...haha, but our station was pretty slack, we had lots of breaks...aft tt, while i was halfway thru dinner, i got called up to e hall to prepare for e nightwalk!! i din even haf time to finish my food, nor spray insect repellent on myself b4 setting off!! got partnered with 2 J1s at e construction site!! oh man, of all places...can't help but feel tt construction sites are v scary, esp at night...plus e 3 of us were equally timid...din even wait for half e group to pass b4 joining in..haha...rather see e kids trip n fall over e stones than stay behind n warn them abt it!! haha...e 2 J1s abandoned me almost immediately when they saw e group, n i was left there, ALONE!! oh goodness!! haha...luckily, ck, fel, n den came shortly aft...e walk lasted over an hr...such a long walk...almost 4 km long!! e kids were all tired out by e time we reached back in school...so were we!!
haha, aft e walk, we were so tired n sticky, n so desperately needed a place to bathe, we decided to go fel's house to wash up, n slp for e night, b4 returning e next morn...fel's dad came to pick e 3 of us back home...alvin toh came along too...juz realised tt we've been seeing him v frequently these days...lol:) aft we were all cleaned up n had our supper, we sat down to watch this korean movie n play bridge...fel kept getting partnered w toh, while me n den kept getting paired up...haha, n e best part was, my pairing w den kept winning, while fel n toh kept losing!! haha...finally, when e movie ended, we thot we'd all go turn in...but when i washed up, i felt more awake than ever!! so i decided to entertain myself, by keeping den awake too!! haha, started jumping n pouncing on her...tickling her to keep her awake...it was like a mini WWF going on in e room...lol...it was v fun for me, but i doubt she enjoyed it as much as i did!! haha...finally, we let her go to slp...n amongst e 4 of us, only she managed to slp...me, fel n toh couldn't drift off to dreamland!! woke up at 5 e next morn...haha, den's left eye was swollen, despite her wearing specs...i had to be blamed for tt...haha...
when we arrived at e camp, we idled ard, waiting for instructions to be given...finally, at abt 7 plus, there was a meeting called at e hall...instruction was: go down n haf breakfast, n we are dismissed!! oh man...can u believe my agony?!! i've nv been awake b4 7am since i dunno when, n i bet tt's e case for them too...n i specially woke up early this morn, only to be told to haf breakfast n go home!! so aft we had our breakfast, we went back to fel's home to...SLEEP!! haha...slept till almost 12 noon, until e queen could not slp anymore...so we all got woken up...had pizza, n watched another vcd together b4 leaving...juz boarded e bus when i realised tt i left my wallet at fel's house...had to go back to retrieve it, which was juz as well, cos e queen wanted to go back n relieve her bowels...haha, she's been constipated for 2 days alr, which is alarming by her standards...went back w den to her house aftward...it was an exceptionally long walk back to her house, much longer than it would haf normally been...
super super tired now, surviving purely on adrenaline at e moment, haha...but camp was great...e overnight stay too!! haha...bet i had e most fun last night...bleh...we shud do it more often...snatch pillows, bolsters n blankets at fel's hse again...
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
juz 1 word to sum up e day: horrible...
maybe it's got to do with mood swings, this morn, i asked my mum to bring me out, but she failed to deliver. got v upset at her n began ignoring her. but aft a while, when i cooled down, i felt remorseful abt my actions...it wasn't completely her fault as well...i shud be more understanding...
then, my sis came along...juz feel like screaming at her to shut up!! she keeps whining abt her best fren in nj, who'll be leaving for us to study in aug n won't be going to sch anymore...going on n on abt how lonely she'll be in class n stuff...n she can't stop complainin abt how disappointed she is in her other fren whom she juz found out is a hypocrite!! argh...quit it!! who doesn't meet hypocrites in life?? n y muz she make it sound like it's e end of e world juz becos someone is leaving?!! she's not e only 1!! i've been thru tt so many times, n not once haf i acted e way she did!! wad's wrong with her?! i guess i'm being rather impatient with her. but her situation is so much better than mine, what does she haf to complain abt?
couldn't stop thinking tdy, my head was juz grinding, grinding, grinding. so many questions to ask, so many left unanswered, so many assumptions made, so many regrets created, so many many thots. i'm seeking for answers, resolutions, but i get none in return. wad i really need, is time. i'm losing time, it's drawing near. with every sec, i'm losing it more rapidly. "so tired are you!" i wanna ask tt of it, but i know it won't make a diff, it doesn't matter at all.
the slack one went to rest at 7:32 AM
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