Sunday, July 31, 2005
it's coming back again. 1st, it was dot; then lisa. i'm trying to overcome it, but each time, it's getting harder. my head tells me i shudn't be doing it, i know it's wrong, but i can't help it. maybe e dist will do us gd.
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internet connection was down for e past few days...oh man...i felt so lost w/o my com!! it's my companion every night b4 i go to bed...haha...like something's missing...anw, it's back now!! hooray:) haha...
been cooped up at home e whole wkend...except for e few times when i went out with my parents to eat...the teachers seemed to have gone mad over e wk...there's so much tutorial to be done!! it's like e bingeing aft starving for 2 mths! from no hw, to tons of hw!! they're mad!!
got some family crisis at home now...haiz...i'm also lost as to wad to do. stuck betw them...
fri night, aft celebrating grace's b-day at pizza hut at btp, thot i'd be eating alone at home...haiz, if i could, i'd haf called u over to join me. lucky, my mum came back!! whew...her appt ended earlier than expected...so we went to newton hawker centre in search for delicious food!! e food there is pretty ex...and v oily...nothing fantastic tt'll make me want to go back...
no pt lingering on wad's gone.
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
was walking back home tdy, along e path leading to my lobby when i suddenly noticed tt e company in charge of my condo installed some GREEN lights along e path!! oh man...it looked v scary, esp when e sky is dark!! luckily it was only abt 8, and not like 10, 11 plus at night. i'd be too freaked out to walk back to my house!! i really dun understand their choice of spotlight colour!! and they had to adjust it so tt e light was shining on e plants!! argh!! i'm a really timid person, esp when it comes to e supernatural!! i'll start imagining things, esp with e green light there!! imagine a pair of eyes, or this figure standing among e plants!! argh!! i won't dare to slp at night alr...or i'll slp with e lights on!! why did it haf to be GREEN??!! are they trying to make e plants photosynthesize at night too??!
stayed back aft sch for women's doubles match w den...1st time lucky i guess...but i tink e next round would be much harder!! e men's singles matches were so exciting...the rallies went on n on for umpteen no of strokes and e momentum kept swinging...totally thrilling...but i couldn't stay on to watch finish e match...haha...and we were lines-women for 1 particular match...haha...
finally cleared my thots last night. no pt clinging on to e past. what has happened, has happened. brooding over it can't change it. it'll only dampen my mood n leave me down n out. tt's so pointless. so i told myself to let it go. it's easier to forget than to dwell on it. feigning ignorance will not solve issues, it'll juz make me regret my actions later. i've finally learnt e lesson aft so so long. moving on time. it's time to be selfish now. i wan to go back to e happy-go-lucky me i used to be and this is juz 1 of e main criterias i guess. so adios to u!
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
haiz, i still don't understand...tried to heed some advice, but it's not easy. came as a shock, not on purpose.
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005
i can't believe my luck this yr...i was so happy when i realised that champagne was my gp tutor at e beginning of e yr!! relieved tt i escaped e clutches of sharon phua, e discipline mistress...but as luck would have it, i'm still v fated with sharon phua! champagne's down for medical treatment for some undisclosed illness and sp's takin over her classes!! tdy was our first lesson with her. waitin for her to come to class was a torture...becos of e position of my seat, my view of e front door was blocked by e wall...so everytime i see a shadow walk pass or simply hear e sound of approaching footsteps, my heart would skip a beat, wondering if e next person walking thru tt door would be her. but luckily, she was 10 mins late...haha, tt means reduced lesson time!! ok, but when she finally arrived, e class went silent. no one dared to utter a word, and tdy was e 1st time in my memory tt i've seen e entire class attend lesson!! haha...evn e mention of her name sends shivers down my back...and i bet i'm not e only one. she has a real gd memory i muz say...memorised quite a lot of names during her 1st lesson w us...luckily, mine wasn't 1 of them!! whew...it's juz delaying e inevitable...but i muz admit, she's a better teacher than champagne is. champagne gives us more freedom to write wad we want to, but doesn't guide us on how to; sp on e otherhand, is more exam-oriented which is v impt at a time like this. i wonder how tmr's lessons will go...
had badminton mixed doubles competition aft sch...got knocked out of e 1st round...but at least it was a defeat by a SBA player...excusable...haha...but i couldn't find my form tdy, neither could ck. we din get to play our best...wanted to put up some resistance but gave up a lot of free pts...still, bottomline is, we tried our best. so nothing to be unhappy abt:)
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Monday, July 25, 2005
aft so long, virginia finally awarded us with a hard-earned half day. but of all days, it had to come tdy...not only is tdy's timetable a short day, we'll be missing 2 chem lessons!! chem is my least fav of subj, so e only reason why i'm do dreadful about missing e lessons is cos jessie will def wan to haf tons of make up with us!! so having a half-day off is equivalent to having none at all!! i'd much rather stay in sch for lessons, than have to come back during free periods for make up. argh...
but nonetheless, we made full use of e free time. trotted down to town to sing k box!! haha, it's been a really long time since we had such a singing session together...managed to get ck to lend his voice to a few songs despite his initial resistance...as usual, i was in charge of 'ordering' e older songs...haha, nostalgy is my middle name...could see them rolling their eyes whenever i chose a song...lol...pretty funny...den's voice is still as gd as ever...belted out song aft song effortlessly...it's such a pity she din sign up for superstar...she'd def haf made it to e finals!! n fel was in charge of e high notes as per normal...haha...can't let her talent as a sop in choir go to waste right?
when e session ended, we were abt to make our way back when it dawned upon us tt a heavy rain had hit town. we were stuck in cine, with only 1 umbrella to our name...eventually, we ran in e rain to taka...luckily it was a short distance away...haha...bought some food back for dinner b4 going back, in e rain again...haha...
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Sunday, July 24, 2005
priorities of life:
1. family
2. books
3. certain frens
4. tuition
5. exercise
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last: other ppl
where do i fall? e last category maybe...u know something's wrong, but u're doing nothing abt it. books and other ppl will always stand b4 me. i see e pic now.
1. family
2. books
3. certain frens
4. tuition
5. exercise
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last: other ppl
where do i fall? e last category maybe...u know something's wrong, but u're doing nothing abt it. books and other ppl will always stand b4 me. i see e pic now.
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was supposed to attend zpop concert yst...but in the end, the $120 worth of tickets that we took went down the drain. studied at esplanade lib with ck, although we were not supposed to. we brought these huge stacks of books relating to subj like puppetry n chinese opera back to the table so that we could hide our notes in betw the books...haha...and everytime a librarian walked past, we'd be hiding to cover our notes, and hurriedly open a new bk and place it in front of us...haha:) it was like a game of hide n seek...
i left aft dinner to meet my parents...on e mrt train, juz as e mrt doors were abt to close, this lady suddenly dashed in. she'd haf gotten stuck in between the doors if the other passengers din hold e doors open for her...and the best part is, she had a child with her!! the little girl couldn't stop crying in the carriage, apparently frightened by the incident that juz occurred!! wonder if the little girl got caught in between the doors juz now as well? what kind of mother is this? if she was alone n rushing into e carriage, then nvm. but she had her daughter with her. wad if they both got caught in between the doors n e train moved off? doesn't she tink b4 she act? the next train is only a few mins away, it's not worth the risk getting caught in between the doors, n risking ur life juz to get onto the earlier train. tt's dumb! i really felt like scolding her...and i bet many others on e train were having similar thots too...cos they all kept on staring at her pacifying her girl.
helped my sis with some baking tdy...she wanted to make some cookies to cheer her fren up...nv realised she was capable of such sweet actions...how come she's not tt nice to me? but all i did was to help her watch e time, open e packet and ya...she did e rest of e hard work...lol:)
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Saturday, July 23, 2005
everything's in a mess now. worse than ever. it's like waiting for buses at the bus stop: either there's no bus in sight, or you get 5 straight buses in a row. it's all going in the wrong direction, every single one of it. i no longer sense e camaderie tt we once shared. why is it lost now? the one tt i wan to salvage e most, is also e same one i can do least abt.
i act as if i dun care abt you, but i act do. i don't blame you for your inabilities, everyone excels at diff aspects in life, so who am i to judge you in 1 aspect when u can kick my ass in some other areas? my side of e story would def be diff from urs. but we're not trying to create a separation barrier. knowing u as well as we think we do, we'd expect u to voluntarily join in e conversations instead of having us extent a red carpet invitation to you. there're always more than 1 way to look at things, why can't u learn to look at it from a diff angle? if u insist on ur own pt of view, i can't stop you. confinement is silliness. accomodation has it's limits.
you do as you like, not a care abt e repecussions of your actions. come up with more convincing excuses next time, otherwise, dun bother trying at all. there is a tolerance capacity to the no of colour changes and unreasonabilities.
e most puzzling one, is also e most urgent matter. it's all shrouded in mystery. i'll nv be able to understand ur way of thinking, and i doubt u'll ever be able to read my mind. but if only u tried...so often, i always feel myself giving way and compromising. it's bad debts accumulating, waiting for tt trigger to explode. u won't realise it, but u pulled ur own trigger. u went overboard, but u won't realise how mean u were. i felt worthless to u. if bribery was considered a crime, i would nv haf met u tt day. i'm not uncomfortable with parting with my money, it's only a worldly possesion. it was e process tt mattered. everything is abt money. money money money. it's abt responsibility, you can forget something u juz mentioned to a stranger, but not to a fren. i realised i haven't heard ur voice nor felt u near me in e longest time. i got this big urge to call u, to give u a hug...but can i? bad timings, miscommunications, we've lost e chemistry betw us. maybe we shud haf nv begun, right from e start, it was meant to end. like 2 ppl who moved to e same village, but were separated into diff districts. meant to be, yet not meant to be. i've been telling myself to remain cool abt it, but sometimes, my mind still loses. i see a replacement...muz it end this way?
the slack one went to rest at 8:44 AM
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Thursday, July 21, 2005
i really dun understand...
you can't always use forget as an excuse...overuse of sorry will lose its meaning...like how jessie's always using the word 'pls' during lessons...it's irritating, and it loses it's effect!! a word loosely used has no sincerity. if you dun really mean wad you say, dun say it...over-delivering a promise is better than break 1.
wad if i trusted ur words? trusted tt u'd make your words count, and stayed on to wait? would i have ended up looking like a fool once more? if it's tt easy to forget the words you said to me, are u hinting tt i dun mean anything to you? otherwise, how can u so casually let me slip your mind? once or twice is fine, but if it starts gaining momentum, this means a trend. it's a reflective sign of my insignificance. if u were truly apologetic abt not remembering the previous times, shudn't you make sure tt u won't repeat this mistake in the future? since you know tt ur memory always fails you, why aren't u doing anything to remind you of things you shud do instead of continually depending on ur lousy memory skills?! or maybe such things only happen to me...cos it's to do with me...so it's unimpt...and since i've nv kicked up a fuss abt it b4, it doesn't matter!
i shud haf gotten used to it alr...but i haven't. how many times haf i forgotten or not kept to my word to you, and how many times have you conveniently FORGOT abt me?! do you tink i've got a right to be angry? do you tink u've been fair to me so far? do i really mean so little? i try my best to make time for u, but u're always too busy for me! when will u start taking responsibility for ur words u say to me, i wonder? maybe nv...
the slack one went to rest at 9:01 AM
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005
terribly long day in sch, timetable was packed with tutorials only...ms champagne wasn't here again...there was this rumour that sharon phua would be taking over our class!! gave us a huge scare...immediately dashed off to gp class to secure gd seats away from e teacher's view!! but luckily, it was purely a rumour!! haha...waited for 20 mins b4 leaving for e canteen to have lunch...can't imagine how terrible it'll be if sharon phua really became my gp tutor!! not only does tt mean tt i'll haf to wear collar pins n badge to sch almost everyday, i'll also lose e privilege to skip gp lessons at will!! hopefully i won't see her terrifying figure during my next gp lesson...
went to den's hse to watch batman begins aft sch...din know wad e entire movie was abt...the beginning n e end made no utter sense to me at all...thot i'd at least be able to figure out e big pic when e movie ends, but i turned out to be sadfully wrong!! such a waste of my time watching a senseless movie...doubt i'd be turning up for e sequels in future...
i can only infer from wad i see...i hardly know u anymore...maybe it's time
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005
i feel like all my bones in my body have disappeared...i tink it's prob over-exertion from all e sports i've been playing for e past 2 wks tt's taking it's toil on my body now...i can hardly move abt without feeling an ache from a part of my body...my muscles are so sore now...evn walking ard is proving to be a chore...i feel 50 yrs older alr...oh man, now i'm beginning to understand how my grandma feels like...everyone in sch is playing badminton now...all e other sports are currently endangered...everytime u notice someone carrying a racket ard sch, it's always a badminton racket...guess everyone's gearing up for e upcoming badminton competition...din really expect such overwhelming response from e rest of sch...it's pretty intimidating...
got back gp compre tdy...horrible marks...borderline pass...tt's terrible...n i'm not hoping for my essay to pull up my grade...cos it nv did. i'm juz hoping to retain my B...dun wanna see my gp grade drop down to a C...but champagne din come for gp again tdy...her age is catching up with her...giving her all sorts of health probs tt's keeping her frm sch...as much as i dislike gp lessons cos it's such an utter bore, i really pray for her fast recovery, so tt she can come back n take us for lessons again...
went to sch late tdy...oh man, i miss tt feeling of being able to lie in bed and get up for sch when virtually everyone else is there alr!! it's juz great! hopefully it'll rain more frequently in e morns, so we'll have assembly in e hall, where e whole class juz gets dispersed everywhere, and it's near impossible for ducro to track each n everyone of us down!! haha...
yst, den n i thot we'd go down to canteen during a mini-break during chem lessons...we both saw e lift stationed at lvl 4, so w/o a 2nd thot, we dashed for e lift button...oh man, who knows, the lift door opened for us...but jessie was inside e lift as well!! in shock, we dashed back into e lab, hoping tt she won't see us...but who are we trying to kid? she approached us when she got back n accused us of playing a trick on her!! luckily, den was pretty quick, and came up with e excuse tt we were having a race to e lift, n accidentally pressed e lift button...haha...yet another cheap thrill...
cleared up a little tdy...juz glad to feel tt u were bothered...if only u'd do it more often...
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Sunday, July 17, 2005
been doing a lot of thinking these past few days...sch's out, and there's really no interest in tutorials. it's times like these when everything starts floating back into ur mind.
u feel like a stranger to me. we'd walk right past each other without uttering a word, and it'd be awkward to make eye contact. while i used to hear and know a lot, silence sits along e bridge between us. ur face is erased, ur voice is replaced. feels like we've taken a ride back in time. we're back to e v beginning.
is there still shelf-life left, or has it past e expiry date alr?!
what i never had, has it come to that?
a life filled with mistakes is better than a life filled with regrets...
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i miss my squash training...as much as i used to hate it in e past, i'm beginning to appreciate it now. imagine my shock when i first joined e cca...from no workout to multiple rounds ard e track, thousands of skipping, n plenty of sprinting n running ard e court. haiz, but now i do miss my coach...haha...though he din like me for being such a slacker...he's a nice guy la...n a v gd coach, always can pin-point my mistakes...used to tink he had a screw loose up there, made us do so much physical ex, which i felt was too-demanding...but now, i miss all e rubbish!! oh man,i nv imagine e arrival of such a day...i wan to go for training again!! i'll be e most enthu 1 there i bet!! haha...doing everything he asks me to do...run run run, sprint sprint sprint, skip skip skip, stretch stretch stretch!! haha...but i doubt i'd join squash in uni...maybe i will if e team is lousy...haha...e others can boost my ego this way...can act like a pro in front of them!! haha...
there's always a secret within everyone. i dun wan to say sorry, but being stubborn won't help things. i wan to tell u how silly ur actions are, n how it irritates ppl. but wad if u get angry?! haiz, it's not worth e risk.
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
woke up real early this morn to play badminton...met this father n son pair there...e father is a badminton enthusiast...he's more eager abt winning than his son does...wonder how his son handles such pressure from his father...but i'm glad we ran into him...he gave me a few pointers on my game...now i realise why my serve sucks!! can't believe nobody corrected me on thurs!! they were all badminton enthusiasts as well, yet none of them could tell wad was wrong with my serve!! oh man..but luckily for his advice, my serve is so much betta now...
had dinner with my uncle n cousins juz now...and as always, i somehow feel tt my mum likes boys more than girls...not tt she doesn't love her own kids, but she actually allows him to throw his temper and manja, and she actually gives in to his demands!! how come she wasn't so nice to me last time?! when i was young, i was super terrified of her!! she was always this fierce, domineering woman whom i nv dared to approach...tt's y my dad always gets bullied by me n my sis...it makes me wonder once in a while if i actually had a bro, would she pamper him more than us?!
felt pretty down tdy...there juz wasn't anything to perk up my mood...
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Thursday, July 14, 2005
finally got our bio results back tdy...came as a shock initially...din really expect e teachers to finish marking e scripts so quickly due to past experience...but anyway, it came back...not too gd...shud be glad i passed...more than half e cohort failed, only 6 ppl managed a B, no As...i dun tink e students dun study hard enuf. i'm sure everyone out there was slogging their guts out during e hols in preparation for e CTs. i feel tt e teachers are partly responsible for the unsatisfactory results obtained. their notes aren't comprehensive enuf, yet they expect us to know it for our CTs...it's really not fair, but who are we to argue against them?! the bio dept will be discussing whether to mod up our grades, but this doesn't change e fact tt our bio is weak. it's not curing e root of e prob, it's purely an act to cover up the dismal fact. now e only paper left yet to be returned is GP, it's e paper i'm most apprehensive abt. according to ms champagne, those who chose to ans e ques i did didn't do well for their compo, n judging by my previous results, i might juz fall within e bottom half of e draw. shoots...
anw, went to play badminton at serene's hse aft sch tdy...it wasn't my plan initially...last night was e first time i suffered from severe insomnia...i tossed n turned e WHOLE night in my bed, unable to enter dreamland. yes, e entire night, i juz couldn't go to slp...my mind was filled with a lot of rubbish from events during e day, as well as a lot of other happenings in my life...it was terrible. this is 1 of e few occasions when i'd be awake b4 my alarm rings...got out of bed super early, cos i felt really pointless lying there doing nothing...hopefully history won't repeat itself tonight...felt like a chicken wing getting grilled during a bbq...thot i might haf to skip sch tdy cos i would be too listless to attend any lessons...but surprisingly, i wasn't as lethargic as i imagined myself to be...my eyebags were also relatively small considering e amt of slp i lost...managed to survive e entire day in sch...so i thot i'd juz meet serene in e aftnoon, walk ard with her a bit, b4 heading home to rest...in e end, i ended up heading to her home instead...the kids at her apartment were having taekwando lessons tonight, so e court wasn't packed with screaming children fighting to pit their skills against each other...played for 3 over hrs...paired up with this china guy living at her condo, while she partnered another guy also living at her condo. tt woman was on fire halfway during e match...it was literally 1 her against 2 of us, her partner juz stood at e net, covering the loose shots...she's an excellent player when she's willing to move her legs n run for balls...my game improved slightly from yesterday...managed to drop a few shots here n there...but my service was terrible...either too long or too wide!! argh, gave them so many free pts!! lucky my partner was a patient guy...haha, evn i felt rather sorry for him...oh man...it's ok, i'll make sure i'll give her a better match next time she returns from aus...haha!! but it was a real gd workout!! juz need more work on my accuracy will do...next time she returns, i'll go her hse everynight to play badminton!! haha:)
feeling rather hyper now...wonder if i'd be able to get to bed tonight...haha...got no one to disturb in e middle of e night...oh man...
the slack one went to rest at 8:46 AM
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
sneaked out of sch b4 it officially ended again...skipped last period of civics cos it consisted of boring 'best practices' exhibition...instead, went to 6th ave to meet serene n grace instead...sat there n talked for a while...was gng to leave alr, but serene dragged me to swiss butchery behind nj...ended up late for my badminton game with den n ck...oh man...feel so bad making them wait for me, cos i was providing all e rackets n shuttlecock...i suck like shit at badminton now!! i can't smash anymore!! my wrist is weak n feeble...can't control n direct my shots no longer...all my drop shots are lacking tt sting tt they used to haf!! this is terrible!! and my reaction time is getting longer!! my reflexes are v slow now!! oh man!! i can't read my opponents' shots anymore!! sucks ah!! i used to be so great at the net...drop here, drop there...but now, i can't execute a proper drop shot!!! they all either hit the net, drop too high above the net and end up at a gd smashing height for the opp, or they drop too far into the court!! it's horrendous!! n when i try to smash, i always end up hitting the racket frame instead!! shit!! i muz play more badminton now! muz stop myself from deproving any further!! and i'm taking a much longer time to move ard the court!! crap!! i'm sticking to badminton from now on, n maybe a bit of squash, until i improve again!!
got back my math paper(again!) tdy...teo added 3 marks for me...and i hardly attempted e ques at all...drew a simple argand diag like e ques described and he gave me 3 marks for tt...guess it's out of pity...so that he could push my grade higher...although it's now a borderline score, i shud be contented alr!! but for prelims, i'm determined to beat sophia!! yes, she's my next target now!! haha...i muz muz muz do betta than her!! lol...yup
i wake up every morn, only to look there n turn away...i wan to see, but i shun it too...
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005
feel so cheated this morn...went to sch early cos i thot ducro will be taking attendance...in e end, dun tink he evn turned up for assembly!! argh!! i could have slept in till much later!! but nvm...ended up playing squash during e chinese free period...tdy was a really long day in sch...the day seemed to go on 4eva...like a nv-ending day...played handball during pe tdy...haha, it was pretty fun...though got whacked a few times here n there...we played until half an hr aft lesson ended!! tt's abt all for tdy...
i'm not acting on impulse like i once did...
the slack one went to rest at 6:01 AM
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Monday, July 11, 2005
left sch early tdy...used dental appt as an excuse, although i could haf left later...din haf much of a mood to stay for maths...ponned civics tdy to play tennis...i'm more convinced now than eva tt i need professional help to improve my tennis...my strokes are atrocious, a rojak mix of a lot of sports come together...can't evn haf a proper rally...guess i make a betta social player instead...haha...
had to wait for half an hr at e dental clinic for my turn...this guy turned up later than me, but went in first...and he took so long!! it was my turn...so ungentlemanly, fight with a small girl over who to enter first...i would haf gone in n come out in less than 10 mins...he took 20 mins!! got so pissed off by him...gave him a gd hard stare when he came out...haha...scooted off to town aft tt to get my dad his b-day present!! a new wallet!! haha...so fun to shop for man's wallet...somehow, although they look duller than lady's wallets, it's a skill to shop for man's wallets...haha...finally decided on a design aft a long search...pretty hip design, hope he'll like it as much as i do...haha...went to search for my wax aft i got e wallet...watson's was having sale on e wax a few wks ago...but now e sale's over...such a pity...original price a bit ex leh...v unwilling to part with my money...haha, so went to toh yi there where i tink e price would be cheaper...finally found my wax aft a hard search at tohyi...whew...haha...
could act go to sch at 9 tmr...but since they've decided to implement the attendance taking every morn...i can't possibly be walking into sch at 9 now...juz haf to rot somewhere in sch during e 1st period i guess...got back quite a few papers alr...only short of bio and gp now to complete e set...hope i won't get too terrible grades for them...
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
nothing constructive this whole wkend...cos there was no tutorials to be done...so it's like a mini-post-exams break...haha...
yest went cycling at east coast for 4 hrs!! my knees almost gave way...then went down to my aunt's hse to celebrate my 2 cousins' b-days...thot i'd be e 1st to arrive...in e end, i was e latest to reach!! made everyone wait for me...so paiseh!!
tdy went to check my contacts...apparently there's some sore part in my eyelid tt's causing e discomfort in my eyes...due to overwear...haha...gotta stay off it till next thurs at least...luckily it's only a minor prob...whew! my temper's like a short fuse these days...quarelled with my parents tdy...1st time in many yrs...anw, it's all over now...celebrated my dad's b-day juz now...cos he won't be ard next wk on e real day, so brought e celebration forward...but we haven't bought him any present yet...
stop sending me mixed msges...i can't be bothered abt wad u tink anymore...at least i'm trying...
the slack one went to rest at 7:37 AM
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Thursday, July 07, 2005
currently slacking at home right now while everyone else is still having sch...climbed under e gate aft break ended...lol...shud be going back at 2 for bio n chem...drats!! dunno wad to do now...my mind is stuck in a holiday mood...can't put my heart into studies yet...haha...
been wanting to play some squash these few days, but of all times, e construction workers are painting e courts now!! their equipments' all inside e courts, no chance for me to use it at all...
tink i'll go get some rest b4 heading back to sch...zzzzzzzzzz
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i've been making a clown of myself this whole wk...
got so many questions running thru my mind all these time...but each n every single 1 of them, e ans is left blank...
looking back n i feel like a fool...ur motive was clear...there will always be strings attached to e things you do...i did everything...you juz came n left as quickly as you did...if u din stand to gain, would u haf appeared at all? i was a klutz, doing everything i did. i dun wanna look at u sometimes...
the distance is growing. the non-chalant is ur voice is telling. ur actions reflect ur true intentions. if reincarnation really existed, this muz be karma.
i will get over it this time round, i know i'm capable of it. juz give me a little more time...to release the grip...
got so many questions running thru my mind all these time...but each n every single 1 of them, e ans is left blank...
looking back n i feel like a fool...ur motive was clear...there will always be strings attached to e things you do...i did everything...you juz came n left as quickly as you did...if u din stand to gain, would u haf appeared at all? i was a klutz, doing everything i did. i dun wanna look at u sometimes...
the distance is growing. the non-chalant is ur voice is telling. ur actions reflect ur true intentions. if reincarnation really existed, this muz be karma.
i will get over it this time round, i know i'm capable of it. juz give me a little more time...to release the grip...
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tdy was a short day at sch...got up real early this morn to attend assembly...ducro told us during civics yest tt they'll be taking assembly attendance more seriously from now onwards...hence, not only will attendance be taken every morn, those who get caught late or absent more than twice will have to attend corrective work order on sat...he evn mentioned sharon phua's name...tt's y i had to make sure i was on time tdy...but now, i'm beginning to suspect his words...apparently, we're one of e few, or maybe e only class tt received this msg...my sis was still in her pyjames this morn when i was abt to leave house...if e sch was tt serious like ducro made it sound, how could my sis's class be left out? impossible right?! i'm starting to think tt it's purely a scam he invented to make us come for assembly...got this feeling tt becos a lot of us dun attend assembly n e teachers haf been dispatched lately to check e classrooms for students during assembly...he's afraid tt 1 of us will get caught n get him into trouble...like how it's always been, e main reason he does everything for is abt himself...he's juz scared for his own ass...going to check out with some more other classes first, n if it's contrary to wad he said, i'm not coming for assembly from nxt wk onwards...
there was an emergency practice drill this morn during chem lect...haha...it was pretty funny to hear virginia's voice over e PA ststem, asking us to assemble at e assembly area...we took almost 15 mins to gather...failing terribly from e 3 min benchmark set...lol...so they'll be having another surprise drill soon...bleh...
ms champagne's not coming tmr...guess i'll be leaving sch aft break, n returning aft lunch for lessons...it's almost like a resort...from nj, take a bus to my swimming pool home to relax, then take a bus back to reality later...haha...
the slack one went to rest at 6:49 AM
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
got back maths n phy marks tdy...not much feelings towards it...can't expect too much out of it...so ya...acceptable grades...met up with char n all yest...haha...ponned gp n pe n rushed to town during lunch...lol...so nice to see them all again...but sadly, pear wasn't there...really wonder wad remarks she'll haf to say abt my hair!! lol...
ducro made us all sign up for e career n leadership talk tdy...haha...but signing up and attending it are 2 totally diff matters...we went to venezia instead for ice-cream while e others were stuck at e lect theatres...lol...amazingly, e side gate was wide open for us...pretty suspicious...there shud be some trap somewhere...luring innocent prey like us to walk right into it...hopefully, ducro won't come aft us tmr...lol...
going out on fri again w serene yeo...ed shud be coming along too...and jessie koh juz had to arrange chem remedial aft sch on fri...oh man...so spoiler...haha, was talking to serene yeo on e phone juz now...she commented tt my ego was too big...i also think so...my ego is damn big...although i do try to hide it at times...i muz admit tt it's too big, for my own gd...tt's y i can be so stubborn when it comes to certain matters...it's so hard to convince me to change my mindset once i get fixed onto it...and when i dun wanna listen, i really won't.
maybe u dun realise how small u haf made me felt...u'll nv see tt it's always abt u, n nv me. there r so many things u ought to know. forget it, cos my smallest request will seem like a demand...
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Tuesday, July 05, 2005
bullseye. 2 perfect hits. consecutively. right on e spot. nail on the head. downhill.
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Monday, July 04, 2005
as they say, e early bird catches e worm...is there any truth in it? woke up real early tdy...almost an hr earlier than e designated ringing time. hadn't flied an aeroplane in ages, took a real long ride on it tdy...possibly e longest ever. bumped into char n chia ying at heeren tdy, b4 running into shun subsequently...real surprise to meet them, they all couldn't recognise me...almost walked right past each other...ran into a lot of other famaliar faces along e street tdy as well...fel's eagle eyes managed to spot me waiting in nydc even with my back facing her. pretty amazing i muz say...
decided to meet den n ck in town aft lunch...din wanna go home, cos there wasn't anyone at home anyway...being alone would juz let my thots run wild...luckily den n ck were in a pretty gd mood, at least in e initial part...helped to lift my spirits up...real thankful for them ard...tried to catch a movie along e way, but e cinema was packed to e brim, couldn't accomodate us...so we went to wisma's coffee club n sat down to watch shakespear in love...
everything has a limit. i dun show it, but my patience is wearing thin. even my parents dun haf e authority to do so, wad gives you e right to then? i hide it to prevent things from becoming ugly, but enuf is enuf. if you were me, won't you tink e same way as i am, tt all this is completely ridiculous and utter nonsense? juz feel like throwing in e towel n wash my hands off it. why is everyone else so diff? i'm not demanding too much...but if i'm always going to be getting such returns...we might as well forget it. when will you stop hurting my ego and belittling me? not once haf you spared a thot. no. never. and you never will.
the slack one went to rest at 8:10 AM
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ever watched chip n dale b4 during childhood days? the 2 chipmunks who were always running away from donald duck...chip's e smarter of e 2...be it e wise, smart, or clever decisions, he's always e commander of e ship...while dale is always e one obeying instructions...listening to wad chip has to say...his part is juz to goof things up...is his role nothing more than a mere supporting role?? i bet tt's wad he's feeling...
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Sunday, July 03, 2005
yes!! the jigsaw is finally completed...can get to admire the complete picture of snow white and e 7 dwarfs now...haha, such a great sense of accomplishment...it's like my masterpiece...i'm so proud of it...all my hard work, bit by bit, day by day, accumulated inside the flurry of colours...juz haf to add a bit of finishing touches to it b4 it's done...i'm so tempted to open a new box and haf a crack at e pieces again...lol, it's so addictive yet frustrating at the same time!! but my mum's complaining tt i shud stop doing e 1000 pieces ones and do e 2000, 5000 or 10000 jigsaws instead!! haha, not as easy as it seems...need a lot of time for tt, maybe double or triple of wad i'm taking now...the dimensions hardly increase by much, but the pieces get smaller so the no of pieces increase...really need e time n space to sit myself down for a gd no of days b4 i try a more challengin puzzle...haha:) aft As would be great...can start collecting jigsaws now...lol...
anw, went out to watch war of e worlds tdy...it's a real great piece of work...got me sitting up in my seat so many times...chiding e little girl in e movie for being so dumb n screechy...it was really thrilling with all e aliens invading earth and stuff...cos e aliens in every movie differs, so you dunno wad to expect from this bunch of aliens...but tom cruise was really lucky, managed to escape from e aliens so many times...haha, tt's y he's e lead, e lead hardly dies...this new batch of aliens were apparently built underneath e earth's surface and got activated by aliens from another planet by lightning...so they emerged from beneath e earth's surface and began using this laser device to turn all humans in sight into dust....it was like...human-laser-flash-zoom-become dust-person disintegrates and his clothes juz fall to e ground...pretty interesting eh?! later, the aliens' machines started feeding on human's blood, circulated it ard their system and squirted it back onto the place they conquered...sadistic...but in the end, they got destroyed cos of this sadistic inhumane act...supposedly, the machines had no immunity against human virus present in the human blood they were circulating in their system, n soon, their system got infected and they became vulnerable...and hooray everyone, humans won the war...haha...pretty exciting to watch them run from e aliens who try to exterminate e entire human race...like a game of cat-n-mouse...haha...
went shopping yet again tdy...oh my!! i'm super super broke now!! really looking forward for my allowances next wk to make me feel less pitiful...bought myself something more unusual this time rd...haha, something i've nv bought for myself b4...a new pair of specs!! lol!! tt's right, i usually buy specs accompanied with my parents, but this time i did it by myself!! haha, hope they'll like e design i chose...tink it's pretty funky...haha, can match my hairstyle!! my degrees gone up!! haven't had it checked in yrs...luckily it din go up by much, juz a steady increase over e yrs...tink i'll haf to go for laser surgery 10 yrs down e road...betta start saving up for it now...haha
sacrifices...it's part and parcel of every relationship...but only e person making it will know abt it. sacrifices are always kept in e dark, hidden from e other person it's made for, hence, it's labelled a sacrifice. it's not meant for e other party to find out, it's only meaningful when secretly carried out...
federer's e champ!! yay, at least e men's finals weren't such a letdown like e women's match!! straight sets win...he rox!! haha...watching tennis on tv is v funny, cos they'll rewind n play all e slow motion shots...haha, n it's so hilarious to watch their expressions when e player tries to hit a diff shot: or when their legs haf to bend in funny angles to reach e shot; or when their fats/muscles start jiggling from side to side when they're running for e ball...lol..ok, tt's pretty mean, but it livens up e match...haha
been getting a lot of smses abt schwork from e classline...guess this means it's time to get back down to proper stuff now...
the slack one went to rest at 8:36 AM
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Saturday, July 02, 2005
tdy's stay-home-complete-puzzle day turned out to be a day of shopping!! oh man, my puzzle's still not completed yet!! so slow!! haha...was juz happily piecing e pieces this afternoon when my sis dragged me out to do some heartland shopping...ya, we ended up at ang mo kio but there was really nothing to buy, except for their v famous curry puff which wasn't as great as everyone made it sound yet had a hefty pricetag of 90 cents!! so we headed for a more exciting heartland place, toa payoh!! TPY is a much betta location for shopping...more clothes to browse ard and it had a bigger premise...more variety...bought myself this new pair of pants from giodano at 50% discount...haha, even though i rarely wear pants becos of sg's weather, e pants were really nice...couldn't resist it...here's e best part, they had no size for e pants, so e pair i bought is a snug fit...tt'll make me keep in shape n lose weight so i can fit more comfortably into it!! lol:) incentive measure...
we were waiting for our parents to pick us up near e hdb hub area...when we ran into DUCRO n mrs ducro!! oh man, wad luck...haha, luckily we were on opp sides of e path, n i was wearing my hat(bad hair day!) so wasn't all tt recognisable...lol:) couldn't believe it was them, but their little cute son wasn't with them...i nv thot of ducro as a loving husband but tdy when i saw him with his wife, they were holding hands n strolling off together!! haha, quite an unbelievable sight...
they were having pasar malam at tpy...so popped down to take a look...haha, ended up buying 3 more 1000 piece puzzles to do...lol, it was super cheap...3 for $10, how to miss right?! haha...i've come to realise thru jigsaw puzzle tt i'm no longer as patient as compared to b4. can find myself losing patience halfway and juz wanting to give up...nv had such probs in e past...but seriously, jigsaws are v efficient tools for increasing tolerance levels....it really pushes u to the limit, esp when e no of pieces start to increase...haha...short-tempered individuals shud take up jigsaw as a hobby!! lol:)
argh!! the monster won wimbledon!!! omg!! tt's terrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how could davenport lose?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rubbish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the slack one went to rest at 9:23 AM
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Friday, July 01, 2005
it was supposed to be a day off today, but maths s had to spoil e day...well, e paper lived up to its name...it's not called special for nothing...haha...meant for those exceptional intellects who find the normal syllabus TOO EASY!! haha, i'm juz one of those who managed to get in with a bit of luck n chance...the paper was super difficult!! they gave us 2 hrs for 5 questions, so u imagine how hard it was!! sophia and nicholas spent yest n this morn preparing for e paper...so scary...sophia even skipped e movie outing with e other girls yest to study for this paper...oh man, i feel so slack, din even bother taking 1 look at any maths stuff...no use studying also la...haha, it's impossible to even ans a whole ques correctly!! i bet even e f maths students will haf prob with e paper!! lol, i'm juz hoping for a pass will do...but tt's highly unlikely...left e entire functions questions blank, dunno wad rubbish they were toking abt, modulus here, no modulus there...ah doy!! brain twister!! so gave it up...din even manage to complete any ques!! haha:)
yes, so all my exams haf finished!! finally!! even this rubbish test is over!! haha, i'm really looking forward to how i'm doing...it's so exciting...haha, doing a puzzle now...got into e puzzling mood...i thot it looked pretty easy...haha, but guess wad?! it's snow white!! 8 characters in all!! same facial colour, but 8 diff faces!! oh man!! it's not easy at all!! i underestimated e pic...thot it looked pretty colourful, so shud be quite simple to piece e diff colours together...turn out...hope i'll be able to complete it over e wkend...but it's really odd shape, cos it had to accomodate snow white n e 7 dwarfs together in e same row...e frame would be pretty pricey...can predict a big hole in my pocket alr!! lol:)
the slack one went to rest at 7:17 AM
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