Saturday, October 29, 2005
it's been ages since i came online...heh...juz lack of any inspiration to post any stuff online...time really flies...
celebrated halloween again last night!! haha...there were 5 of us...me, xin, bek, bek's sis n bro...but we only contributed 1 pack of chips to e party!! lol...not trying to be cheapskate or anything...the party was slated to start at 6...but when we went down at abt 715, they were still playin games n e food table wasn't evn open yet!! haha...we were dressed up as witches again this yr...the lady organizer-failed to get her name-recognised me on e spot!! haha...maybe cos we were e only grp there with a bunch of teenagers while almost everyone else was still pri sch kids or younger!! luckily there was another bunch of teenagers ard...so we grouped up with them n went ard trick-treating...haha...brought this huge pot my grandma uses to cook curry to pose off as e witches' cauldron...collected so much sweets this yr compared to e last...though e fun-factor was reduced cos we weren't allowed to enter anyone's house...
when we finally arrived at my house, xin couldn't recognise e place...haha...while me n bek were at e back deciding not to take any sweets, xin was still straddled between famaliarity n blurness...haha...we had a gd laugh abt it later...aft e trick-n-treat session, we stayed on near e poolside for a while, exploring our candies, b4 heading upstairs...
it was back to e bks aft washin up...and though bek was e one who came up with e idea of "studying-throughout-the-night", she was also e 1st to fall asleep...haha...juz as well...i can imagine myself staying up all night to watch vcds, but to be able to make a similar sacrifice for my bks....that's a bit...impossible...haha:) so me n xin went to bed shortly aft she did...
xin 4got to bring her specs, so i lent her my old pair...but my face was smaller than hers...so she was struggling with it e whole night...haha...wearing it like how old grandmothers wear it on their noses...lol:) then b4 bek went to bed, she said tt she'd set e alarm at 6.30 and wake xin up together!! haha...we woke up an hr later...haha...thankfully not b4 e sun rose:)
the rest of e day was juz devoted to studying...but i din do much though...juz got too fed-up with all e books...sian...kept on walking up n down, back n forth...haha...e As hasn't started n i'm wishing for it to end alr...
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
in a terrible mood the entire day...thk it's moodswings...i hope it's means tt my period's coming...it's been late for i-dunno-how-many-wks alr...1st time this entire yr since it's late...it's always early, but nv late. prob i juz woke up on the wrong side of bed. switched myself to the non-interaction mood the whole day...guess i can be really nice when i wan to, n extremely attitude otherwise. can feel hyde coming out of me tdy...
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Monday, October 24, 2005
went for some street jazz class this morn with beks n xin...haha...the instructor was so serious, din bother to intro himself n jumped right into the warm up ex...but it was fun nonetheless...felt like last yr when we were learnin the dance to perform in taiwan...except this time, the dance steps seemed much easier to execute...haha...
we ended up studying at coffee bean aft tt...had lots of free entertainment nonetheless...watching those 2 argue is liken to an entertainment show on tv...haha...despite the numerous failures, beks hasn't stopped tryin yet...haha...thruout it all, we kept starin at the cakes on display at the display counter...they all looked to delicious...thk we can memories the diff price tags of the cakes by now...cheesecakes, choc cakes, carrot cakes, apple pies!! they all look so yummy!! haha...we sure looked like beggers to the ppl workin there...kept on starin at the cakes display, but nv gng up to buy one...haha...its amazing tt we managed to resist the huge temptation right in front of us...it's such an achievement!! haha:)
there was this documentary on cna juz now, sth to do with present myths n legends abt our health...i feel so much betta aft watchin e show, cos there was this sports specialist interviewed on the show. she said tt muscles n fats r 2 separate entities, and won't convert from one to the other, unlike the common belief tt muscles will turn into fats. heh...so thankful for tt...tt means all my muscles haf juz turned loose from the long periods of non-usage, but haven't disappeared!! whew...don't haf to rebuild them now...lol:) but i'll leave tt to aft As...no such hurry yet...there's no end to the road of beauty. u can be unhappy with wadever size u are; u can be pleased with any shape ur body is, it's all up to the way we choose to perceive it:)
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
din do much work tdy, which left me feeling super guilt-ridden. went out for lunch at...ding tai feng...haha...my dad suggested e place, not cos me or my sis demanded it...the place was really crowded when we got down, had to wait for abt 20 mins b4 we got a table...aft tt, both me n my sis wanted to buy sports shoes, so we got our dad to send us down to queensway...
in the end, i was following my sis ard while she shopped for random accessories...maybe i was getting impatient, but at that time, i felt she was really v slow...like a tortoise...so i lost my temper at her a bit. but anyway, she got a new pair of shoes, and lots of other stuff...i got myself new shoes too...haha...dun understand why only 1 shop had tt design, but it was real nice!! haha...love at first sight!! i juz had to get it...
in order to make up for all e lost time tdy, i betta study doubly hard for e rest of the wk...lol:) i wonder if i can stick to my words though...
getting so easily affected nowadays...time n absence shud curb it. it's all juz cos of 1 word.
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Friday, October 21, 2005
nothing much acoomplished tdy...went down to swiss butchery to stock up on the ham supply at home...finished 400g of ham at kap later in the afternoon...haha...we really looked like carnivores with tt big pack of ham in front of us...lol...kap looks so much betta now aft e renovation works...much more comfortable...if only there were lesser ppl there...i'll def go there more often:):):)
suddenly hit by nostalgy...getting all emotional now...dunno why...think n sigh, think n sigh, think n sigh...vicious cycle...haven't gotten so sentimental in ages...thking abt e past few yrs...mg, nj, surprisingly no hc...haha...3mths is too short to leave too many memories behind...
somehow, i always get enlightened while showering...maybe i shud bathe more often...helps to clear e mind...
i dun understand the worth of 10 cents when i'm rich; i treasure 1 cents only when i'm broke. not meaning it directly in monetary terms. it's a typical saying, but i cant seem to overcome it. i truly understand it's meaning, but like always, i'm stuck in this rat-race.
beginning to feel like a stranger to myself. can't thk of anything else but a pendulum to describe myself now. at 1st, i thot i belonged to 1 extreme of e motion...at least tt's wad i've convinced myself...yet i din know when it started, but i find myself at e other extreme of the oscillation suddenly...and juz when i assumed myself to remain there, i find myself swinging back to where i was initially. wad the hell. i dun understand myself these days.
maybe it's juz e feeling of an impending loss settlin in tt's creating all e havoc within.
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Thursday, October 20, 2005
juz got back not too long ago...suddenly in the shower, i juz had this feeling. it felt like, i was back in taiwan again. i dunno how to explain it, but it felt like i was back in taiwan, at my girl's house washing up aft a long day at sch. maybe it's the smell, the air, or juz some weird emotion growin inside me.
had a v relaxing day tdy. juz had fun excising together, studying together, n laughin together on train back home. xin n beks seem to belong to 2 extremes on the personality curve. diff freq, laugh at totally diff matters...but when they're put together, it's real funny, like watching live television. beks will attempt to tell some joke, n most of the time, only she n i will laugh. xin will juz sit there n nod...haha, then beks will start getting exasperated and complain loudly abt it....and xin is hilarious when she tries to explain her plight. that she's not laughing cos she doesn't wan to lie to us since she doesn't find it funny...haha...beks will get all irritated cos of it...haha...though they haf so diff personalities, they're so matching in so many ways too...lol...it's was juz pure free entertainment for me the entire day...
watchin them mug so hard to day is making me worried...i'm starting to get really scared now...scared tt i won't do well for my As...wad am i gng to do then?? betta not think so much...time for bed now...haha...study hard everyone
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
got awoken early this morn by a sms...from...genna...at the ungodly hour of 7.51am!! i was still planning to get an extra hr or half more of slp...but anyway, i thot it might be something urgent, so i quickly got out of bed to get it...my eyes opened to double it's size when i read the msg...it was a reminder from genna that there'll be maths s lesson tdy at 10.30 in sch!! how come teo din mention tt b4?? then aft a few more smses, i realised tt genna got e dates mixed up. no wonder she din stay back on mon...admired her guts to skip teo's lesson esp since she's not in his gd bks alr...now the puzzle's solved....haha...i felt a little sorry for her, but din wan to show too much sympathy at the same time...partly cos i felt more pity for myself havin to wake up so early on a non-sch day, and another part of me was scared tt she'll ask me to give her remedial lesson for wad she missed tt day...not tt i have any violent objections towards tt, but if i could, i'd much rather leave this sacred task to some kinder soul:) couldn't get back to slp from then onwards...and i've been in my half-awake-half-asleep mood the entire day!!
thk i've got wisdom teeth growing in my mouth...not as painful as others describe it to be, it's juz irritating. cos the bottom jaw lacks a similar wisdom tooth to complement the top one. whenever i start chewin my food, i'd involuntary bite on the jaw where the wisdom tooth is lacking...and it's a chore to remove remants of food pieces from the wisdom tooth cos it's so far behind in the mouth!! i was act quite relieved 2 yrs ago aft removin all the teeth to fit on my braces, thking tt tt'll be the last time i'll haf to endure such trama, but it looks like i'll be suffering a similar fate soon enuf. wonderin if i shud remove it now, or after my As...there's juz no suitable time to remove teeth...plus all the inherent drawbacks; abstainance from hard food, only semi-solid or liquid foods can be consumed, drinking water from a cup with a straw...plus i'll lose so much blood over it!! and all my teeth will feel limp for the next few days aft extraction...oh man!! why can't my wisdom teeth be more obedient n juz remain buried under my jaws 4eva?!
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
finally there's a bit of sun tdy...the past few days were juz dark clouds, rain, rain n more rain. makes the body feel lethargic n sleepy...
haven't been doing much these past few days...v worried abt my revision now...i dunno wad to do, how to start...went out for lunch with my mum tdy...in the end, we started shopping aft lunch!! haha...bought myself a new pair of pants...my mum almost bought pants for herself as well, but couldn't find the right size...so the whole afternoon was gone...and by the time i got home, i was too tired to do any work!! drats!!
there was some farewell ceremony in sch yst...not much of a farewell though...no tears, no hugs, no fond memories of the sch...instead, i bet more than half the population took it as a celebration ceremony...celebrate their impending departure from this dreaded place they've spent the past 2 yrs in...haha...i'm one of them...not like i was real fond of mg too...but 10 yrs there sure beats 2 yrs in nj...
i guess many yrs down the road, there'll only be those few things i'll rmb abt my jc life; my frens, the cheap thrills, lorry-hitching, lift riding, gate crawling-climbing, getting into trouble w virginia...sigh...i will miss all these things...we can't do such stuff in uni anymore...plus everything ard me would haf changed alr...ppl, environment...i can't evn pon assembly now evn if ducro asks me to!! lol:)
can feel my eyelids shutting alr...betta go slp...haha...leave all the nostalgy stuff to another day when i'm in a more awake n sentimental mood!! 50771
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
had phy tuition this morn...argh...can't help but get irritated...she's always so efficient in collecting fees, but so unaccomodating when it comes to arranging tuition times...if the As weren't approaching, i'd haf sacked her alr...and i thk it's a mutual feeling...
xin said i got this very attitude face when i'm unhappy...heh, i'm juz a very truthful person...bad at concealing my real feelings...plus the long waiting period juz made me more impatient at e guy's inefficiency...
anyway, went down to buy cloth for my gown tdy at bugis...luckily fel n her mum knows the place well...heh...it's really the 1st time i've been there...a real eye-opener...thks fel for helping me bring it to the tailor:)
got so frustrated during dinner tdy...my mum was in a bad mood, rushed my sis n me for dinner...we ended up havin to wait for half an hr to get a table!! argh...can't stand it when she raises her voice at me...esp since i din do it on purpose!! guess tt's juz my side of the story...
really, it's nothing to do with you. it's all my fault. if it makes u feel better, juz dun care abt me. i'll prob get over it soon. it's not my intention to lift u up n drag u down. i understand ur efforts, but it's a personal hurdle i haf to overcome.
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Friday, October 14, 2005
tdy was a wasted day...din evn do a single piece of work the entire day, opp to wad was planned!! i'm feeling guilty now...hopefully, it'll be enuf to motivate me to study from tmr onwards...seriously, i dun look like a student abt to take As...i feel like an actress now...suitable to act in invisible man 3.
we ended up gng to town again tdy...2nd time this wk alr...it wasn't intentional...finally gave ck his b-day present...thk he shud like it, though i din get to c him in it:) we played some more bridge at wisma foodcourt b4 gng to take...neoprints again...haha...maybe we can pose as aliens next time...more alienated...e 3 gals were in their...erm...beachwear, while ck was the only 'dressed-up' one amongst us:)
ck's sis called during the bridge session to inform him abt some specs shop giving out free lens...i guess it's some form of telepathy between them, she could tell he was in town at tt time...haha...we went down to get free lens aft tt...some new oxygenated monthly soft lens...got a pair for myself too...haha...such cheap deals, cannot let outsiders gain right?
fel had to leave early b4 dinner...so it was down to 3 of us...3 is...we had dinner at pasta mania...but i couldn't really eat...juz had lunch at 3, so my stomach was still very filled. aft tt we juz walked ard orchard aimlessly b4 heading home...
actions speaks volume....
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
had this super long dream last night.
it started with sg being separated along the dunno-which division line, somewhat like how korea is divided into north-south; sg was divided into east-west. then i had to bid my frens gdbye, like a last farewell...it was such a teary event...evn i was crying like mad inside...haha...i've nv felt tt way b4...out of this world...it felt so hard to let go, but separation was inevitable.
then, my sis came into the dream. she was driving this van or some vehicle of the sort, smuggling me from the west to the east...i felt like some refugee, hiding from all the police guards along the way. somehow, we managed to make our way to the block where everyone was. i pressed the lift button, waiting for the lilft to arrive when i heard the police siren.i turned to look, and saw tt there were lots of policemen coming out of their cars, after me!! it jolted me up.
i told myself tt it was only a dream, n i could control the events inside. amazingly, the dream really continued the way i wanted it to when i drifted off to slp again...the police disappeared and i managed to find my way up to the correct flat. when i met everyone, i hugged them n cried again...oh man...then, the dream ended, and a diff story started...
i'm really curious to wad the dream means...maybe i'll meet someone whom can help decipher it's hidden meaning...
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005
yay!! sch's finally over!! haha...bye bye nj 4eva!!
it was supposed to be double gp aft assembly. but i guess being the last day of sch was juz an additional push factor to make us pon lessons...haha...so while we were deciding whether to pon the 1st or 2nd half of the day, PD passed by...then when we finally decided tt we'd pon the 1st half of the day, ratna came along...so den had to go for GP...in the end, we all went for GP...sigh...
aft 1 more period of maths, we decided to self-declare the end of sch!! haha...the 4 of us juz strolled out of the main gate, and headed for orchard...it was hainanese chicken rice for lunch at far east...then, it was shopping time...haha...
din know we spent so much time in 1 particular shop...ck is really patient...din grumble or get impatient while waiting for us to change n test try the diff...outfits...lol:) it was damn hard to make a decision...cos the votes were divided...the shop helper had to intervene to help ease the decision making process...but i felt it was not a bad buy...haha...i'm gonna make sure it's being made full use of!!
my sis was up baking at 12 am last night...stayed up to play her assistant...dead beat now...thk i'll go slp first:)
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
another day of sch...the day seemed to drag on as usual...tmr's the last day of sch finally!! whew, i can bid virginia, ducro and all the grey walls gdbye very very soon!!
there's double gp tmr...haha, 1 of my most dreaded periods...2 hrs with SP!! gotta pry my eyes open n look like i'm listening evn if i'm not...haha...ducro gave us back our prelim results to vet tdy...haha...got a U for maths s...haha...
played bridge again in sch...haha, this time, during BIO lesson...PD gave us some other jcs prelim papers to try and left e classroom...so we juz tried to do a bit, b4 giving up, saving our brains for more intellectual purposes...BRIDGE!! haha...
totally forgot abt my dental appt tdy...until i went to sch...then at the clinic, i had a hard time trying to explain why i din bring along my retainers with me, when it ought to be in my mouth all the time!! haha:)
juz went cycling for a while...cycled all over the place, aimlessly, tryin to catch the wind...and why did i end up there?
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Monday, October 10, 2005
my mood's been swinging like a crazy pendulum these days...one min it's gd; the next it's like a thunderstorm!! and the best part is, i know i'm having moodswings, but i can't do anything abt it. and i've been eating like mad these days...not in sch, haha, save money, but when i get home!! i eat like a king!! guess tt pts to 1 thing: my period's coming!! haha...i've nv had such symptoms in the past, but now, they all seem to be affecting me all at once!!
tdy in sch, my mood kept changing. din haf the mood to say anything at all, totally numb to my surroundings n the ppl ard me...like i'm trapped in my own small world...the dentist called n i totally ran out of patience with the nurse...she told me at first tt my appt was on mon, tdy at 3.30...then she called up on sun to say tt it's been changed to 4.30...so i got fed up cos sch ends at 3...wad am i to do during tt time till my appt? so i had it changed to tmr aft at 4.30...she betta not sabo me again...
i thk it's got to do with exam-stress as well...it's shortening my periodic cycle!! oh man...haha...it's coming so often now...i hope the symptoms dun come along with it as well!! guess my mood's swinging to the high side now...pity my parents n sis who's gotta tahan my temper...
the 4 of us played bridge aft sch tdy...haven't had so much fun in such a long while...we played till 4 plus, when fel wanted to go home. but me n den wouldn't let the 2 of them go till we both won the game!! haha...so she n ck had to accompany us for another round...then, this juz went on n on, a vicious circle of sort...haha...we finally left sch aft half an hr...lol...but it was damn fun! haha, we couldn't stop laughing:):):)
i dunno why u forgot, or maybe u were waitin for me to say. but since u weren't free, i din bother mentioning it as well. a part of me hoped tt u wouldn't rmb; the other wished otherwise. i dunno why i'm feeling this way...could this be called possessiveness?
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Saturday, October 08, 2005
finally went to make my prom dress tdy...we took a v long time to decide on the design!!! haha...den only altered her old dress, while fel, despite bringing her mum n sis along, had a hard time deciding on the design she wanted...haha...it was pretty fun though...really hope the dresses will turn out nice. the next part of the task now is to get the material...drats...haha:)
the designin-dress took longer than i expected. i got my mum to book for an early dinner, but i only arrived 40 mins later!! haha...luckily there were three of them to keep each other company...when i finally reached aft the long treacherous journey, they'd only juz finished the appetizers!! haha, the main course came within 5 mins...perfect timing!! my stomach was growling...haha...we ended up having dinner at jack's place instead of the brazilian restaurant at 6th ave cos it was simply too ex!! $38+++ per person, tt's near daylight robbery. how many slices of meat can we possibly eat. it's juz not worth it, no matter how delicious the food may be. parhaps i'll only go there when i act haf a company to pay for my meals, then i can bring my clients there to feast together!! haha:) brilliant idea!!
feel my life wheeling out of control nowadays...
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Friday, October 07, 2005
had a scrumptous dinner last night at.......ding tai feng!! haha...made my whole family go there for dinner...wa...it's been ages since we all ate out...it was really money well-spent...we got a free bowl of soup for spending $40 n above...haha...we shud go out n eat more often!! then everytime i can get to eat such delicious food!! haha:)
aft tt, we walked over to taka cos my sis wanted to buy some stuff...so me n my sis parted with my dad n mum who went for a coffee-break. kino had lots of cute stuff as usual...specially designed to make u want to buy it evn though u dun need it...haha...juz as we left kino, my phone rang. i suddenly realised how bad i was at multi-tasking!! haha...i couldn't conc while talking at the same time!! i was almost juz following my sis ard, and choosing stuff for her:) haha...
tmr we'll be gng out to celebrate my sis's b-day!! haha, i'm tryin to make my dad bring us to the brazalian restaurant at 6th ave there!! i heard the fd's excellent, though it's pretty ex...and u can eat till ur fill!! oh man....i'm gng to starve myself during the rest of the day so tt i can keep my stomach for dinner!!!
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Monday, October 03, 2005
haven't felt so lost in sch for a very long time...i din realise there was so much hw to be done over the wkend!! i did none of them at all!! haha...so i juz spent the time staring at the teacher, pretendin to be listening to him/her, when there's nothing processing inside at all:) haha...
got back my bio and gp essay marks tdy...only left 1 small section of bio essay yet to be returned!! but i know i won't do well for tt paper...cos i din evn get to finish e paper!! i'm juz hoping for an improvement in bio grades now...haha...sounds so pathetic:)
SP was atas as usual...all the gp classes got back their scripts alr, and she wasn't evn ard yet! so my whole class juz sat there like idiots, not knowing wad the teacher at the stage was rattling on abt...argh...she only gave back our scripts aft the teacher finished...and she scolded some of the ppl who made her repeat their name more than twice while handling us back our scripts. aiyo, so ngiao. being the discipline mistress doesn't give her such authority over others...luckily i'm not her colleague, and i hope i'll never be!! being her student is bad enuf alr...at least i'll get to leave her aft my jc yrs are up; being her colleague means i'd haf to face her day in n out until my bond expires or when i get transferred to another sch, which might take years!!
i'm super confused n exasperated now. i seriously dun understand. i feel like givin up alr.
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Saturday, October 01, 2005
went down to town for e 3rd consecutive time yst...haha...there was this sale all over town for readers of cleo. some 11th anniversary promotion, participating outlets were selling off their merchandise at $11 only...haha, so went down to take a look...din buy anything at all, cos i felt bad abt spending so much of my mum's money on thurs alr, so told myself to control n not to get tempted into buying them!! haha...town is super crowded on wkends...bustling with activites...saw jamie yeo n glenn ong hosting some event juz outside tangs...wanted to sign up for this spa thing near marina initially, but they only accept customers above the age of 21!! such a waste!! it's such a gd deal, $11 for a spa treatment, where to find such bargains?!
it was supposed to be a QUICK shopping trip, but ended up staying in town till almost 8!! haha, met fel along the way. she was parting with her grp of frens when i bumped into her at the traffic light!! haha, why do i always bump into her in town?
if i ever get married next time, i know who i can get to be my FLOWERGIRL alr...lol...muz wear the same nice green flower again k!!
tdy's the last day of my self-declared hols. tmr's its back to the bks!! drats, i'm still not done with my vcds yet!! so many shows to watch!! i'm so broke now!! muz bring sandwiches to sch for lunch from tmr onwards, haha:)
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