v short day in sch tdy, only had 3 periods of lessons...heh...

1st period was pe!! it used to be my most hated period, cos of all e running involved, but now tt napfa is over, it's become my fav period!! but din do much also...den, serena n grace ran their 2.4, so i paced den for 3 rounds...at first, i thot i'd do alternate rounds, but she went quite fast for e 1st 3 rounds, so paced her for e last 3 rounds instead...whew, luckily my stamina still ok, haha, thot i couldn't last for 2 rounds w/o her pacing me instead for e 3rd!! but i'm glad she hit her target!! went for phy n math lect aft tt...and then, it was time to run out of sch!!

haha, sab n thomas joined us in escaping from sch...there were so many teachers at e grandstand!! we were so conspicuous!! but luckily, no teacher ran aft us...haha, but e gate is harder to crawl under now...cos they painted it, so e barbed wires haf stiffened, making it harder for us to wriggle thru it. the whole jean gang trooped down to orchard...haha, had crystal jade porridge for breakfast...expensive indulgence, can't haf it too often...

den n thomas left aft tt, i went off with sab to watch a movie, ck din wanna spend money...so we separated aft breakfast...this is e first time i've stepped into orchard since many months...i feel so deprived!! it's been ages since i've last gone shopping!! muz go n make up for it during e june hols!!

so glad we haf a long wkend...

i find myself lost in this puzzle of life. once so many a time, i find myself incomprehensible.

why am i feeling this way? why am i not? i juz can't understand why some things happened they way they did. maybe it's cos it din go according to e way i wanted it to. e more i believe tt we control our own fate, e more confused i get, n e more i can't accept it.

W.H.Y? is an old illness having a relapse again? no, tt's not e case. there's always a trigger to it.

i wish i had an explanation for it, let me understand n accept it, so that i'd stop thinking too deeply into it. an overdose can make e mind delirious. is it tt hard? am i really asking for too much? tt's cos u mean something to me, otherwise, i wouldn't be as bothered as i am now.

sometimes, i feel really disappointed, but i juz tell myself to get up. collapsing down won't reverse e situation. i haf to make myself rise above it. pre-preparation efforts does help, though not a lot. it still comes as a shock once in a while. it's like chewing on a bar of choc to suddenly bit on a nail halfway. e surprise, shock, pain, disgust...

i can't speak my mind without having any qualms abt it. i'm reluctant, i'm holding back, i'm scared. i'm afraid of what might lay ahead if e words came out. would they be worse than b4? silence doesn't always mean consent. it can mean reluctant acceptance for fear of e setbacks might tag along. i'm not prepared for it, tt's y i chose e quiet way out...

talking to char online juz reminds me of e 1st 3 months again, n how much i miss seeing her in sch everyday...

hmm, still rmb e first day of sch, she was e friendly one while i the aloof one. haha, i din really like her initially, cos she 'abandoned' e class during orientation, n almost got us into trouble. but somehow, we got closer...

sitting at e pull up bar area for her to look at xorsy, all e holding hands, talking during lects esp phy prac (mr lee always came over to ask if we had any questions for him), e zip-up-zip-down jacket when pee was near, all e swimming pe lessons we had, n how we both escaped to gutherie house b4 e release of e Os, plus seeing her tear cos of e song the ice-cream shop was playing, etc...although we only had 3 short months together, she showed me tt frenship isn't measured by e amt of time spent building it...

i miss having her ard so much!! seeing e sc girls in nj during e 3 months reminded me of her; watching e softballers having a game made me think of her again...even going to kap for a quick bite would remind me of e farewell session we had for her...

char, thanx a lot for e belated b-day present. i can see how much effort u put into it, n i wanna tell u tt i really appreciate it.

love u dear

yay, i finally managed to convince my dad to get me a new bike!! haha, aft so many wks, he finally relented...as for my mum, she din say much, but i guess, she can't object much to it now alr!!

haha, when we got to e bike shop, they were having this closing down sale...so we juz browsed ard...finally, we decided on 1 particular one...it was marked down to half price, from $400 originally to $200 now. din look too bad, but they din haf many choices left...finally chose a red n golden frame one. there was actually this other bike w a red n silver frame, but it was dented n e seat was torn...it wasn't worth it compromising e quality of e bike for e colour, i mean, aft all, e outlook is secondary...so ya, took e less attractive bike with inner beauty...lol:)

when i got home, i immediately went down to ride it, din wanna go out to e roads yet...cos i'm still unfamaliar w e bike...it was only while riding it tt i realised wad functions it was missing...water bottle holder, BELL, nightlight...tt's a lot of stuff to supplement...muz run down to e bike shop someday to get them all...hee hee...n now, it's sitting proudly at e lift lobby...haha...

got back our results slip tdy...such depressing grades...esp maths!! argh, nv seen such a low percentile b4!! n when i saw e overall stats, it felt even more demoralising!! but nvm, i'll juz haf to put it behind me, n start working harder for e next round of CTs aft e june hols...everyone's mood was affected by e return of e horror slips...

although i dun agree with ur actions at times, i can't say much. wad's e pt of saying? u won't change, n it'll only make things feel awkward betw us. instead of improving matters, i'll juz be making it worse, which is silly. i really wish tt u can read my mind sometimes, so tt such things won't haf to be put into words.

had a a2 class party tdy, a mini one i guess.

very few ppl turned up, prob abt half e class...i was a co-organiser, n i juz can't stand those who din turn up w/o a valid reason. those who r overseas r excused...but those in sg, i juz dun understand y they couldn't come. it's not easy to organise such stuff, n besides, how often do we haf such a gathering?? e least e rest could do, is to at least confirm whether they're coming or not, or try to make it if they're free!! ed din turn up, cos she's always not replying her smses!! can't stand it when she doesn't re smses...n dot, she din wanna come, cos she wanted to stay home to do her essay!! wad else is new?? juz can't be bothered to bother myself w her matters anymore...

lisa was angry at e initial part cos me, jas n dot din confirm w her abt our stayover...but aft a while, she loosened up n things were back to norm betw us. e highlight of e day was christina n her bf!! haha, grace managed to persuade her to bring him along, n he actually turned up!! he could recognise me n grace...haha, cos of e embarassing things we did on wed!! so paiseh la!!

went with lisa to do a little shopping while waiting for e table to be ready...bought myself a new hat n a pouch...haven't had e chance to shop in ages!! i feel so deprived alr...finally when we got a table, although everyone was seated together as 1 big grp, we could still feel e segregation...w doreen n gang, it still felt v awkward, cos we haf nothing much to relate to each other abt...luckily i had lisa for company, otherwise i'd juz rot to death over there...oh ya, n e best part of e evening came when we went to pay e bill...haha, marche forgot to charge us for e roasted chicken, n e bill turned out to be cheaper than i expected it to be...duh!! haha, a stroke of gd luck eh?!

yest was tt nationals, 1st match vs sajc...we had our chances, but we missed it i guess...we lost 5-0, but i guess everyone put their best foot forward, juz tt they were all still relatively new n inexperienced...n their nerves couldn't handle e situation...of cos i wasn't fielded...my standard is more for leisure than for comp...haha, sent me will only throw my, n e sch's face...lol...table tennis's my worst racket sport, e bat is close enuf to a racket, juz minus e strings tt's all...similar frame n all...my strokes r all a rojak of badminton, squash n tennis!! it's juz not my forte...haha, cos i dun haf much patience, plus my foundation is weak. my strokes now r built up on mostly squash n badminton strokes, tt's y its so hard for me to convert to e table tennis strokes, cos they're all so diff in nature...plus i'm so used to e other strokes, unless i'm really a multi-talented sports player, otherwise u can make me forget my previous strokes, it'll be so hard for me to accept e table tennis strokes n excel at it...also, it's a totally diff strategy tt players use...so in short, i'm juz not cut out for table tennis!! haha...man, i really wish i stuck w badminton last time, n none of those things happened in e past!! watching e tt girls play their doubles match, i really wish i had a doubles partner too, esp in badminton...it'd be so fun...to be able to haf someone to work with u thru e match, someone u can rely on, who can back u up when u need support, n e esctasy of victory will also double!! haiz, now i wish serene yeo was back in sg to play badminton with me!! argh, i'm so jealous when i see them playing doubles...

took me 2 whole hrs to get back from chung ching aft e match...can't they hold it at a more central location? instead of katong?? can't they spare a thot for ppl living in e west?? fell asleep immediately when i got home, din wake up till 9 plus...then went out for supper, heh, so sinful...

played only 3 rounds of bridge during break tdy, only to get seen by gilbert lee...my cards got confiscated by him, e whole deck...he even wanted e cover which i can't understnad why...maybe he wans to keep it for himself...haha, but too bad...grace happened to drop one card during e episode...so now, he has 51 cards, while i have e 2 of dimes with me...so if he wans e complete deck for himself...haha, too bad for him...but i feel heartache for my cards...really loved tt deck a lot...though it's old n dirty alr...it was e first bicycle deck of cards i bought...back in sec 3 i think...it juz holds so much memories...lisa, serene, dot, jas, val, joyce, ed, zy, sianny, everyone back at mg...n at nj too!! n it was a really gd deck of cards...until now, e quality is still maintained...unlike e other brands which get sticky n worn out aft time...this deck was as gd as new!! how dare he snatch all these memories from me!! haha, but if he's thinking abt keeping it for his own use...it's juz too bad...he doesn't haf e complete deck! guess i learnt my lesson...no, i'm still going to continue playing bridge in sch, but this time, i'm gonna use e cheapo cards, those which r new n won't cause any heartpain when confiscated by e teachers...this gilbert lee...trying to act as if he's e discipline master in sharon phua's absence...bet he's eyeing her post of discipline master...he's been at e grandstand every morn catching all e latecomers...n he's doing all this on his own accord, it's not within his job scope...for now at least...trying to act say ah...

haha...had a wonderful time playing uno in class w serena n all...haha, pe was cancelled due to e hot weather, n rene loh refused to let us play games for fear of injury b4 napfa...so yup, we proceeded to class for a game of uno...fel wanted me to play chinese chess w her initially, but i juz couldn't adjust my mind from e angmoh version...kept making stupid moves n getting eaten...haha, passed on e game to nicholas aft tt...he deemed it as challenging...it ended in a draw...so while fel was taking on nicholas, i was happily playing uno with e rest...actually, they're a really fun bunch...juz tt they like to click amongst themselves...my impression of sophia is also improving...initially, i used to think she was a loudhailer...v rude n din know when not to amplify her voice...but now, i guess it's cos i'm getting adjusted to her noise level...so everything is gd...haha, guo yu joined in halfway but she juz couldn't get it right...haha, as blur as usual throughout e whole game...

back in mg, mainly cos it was an all girls' environment, it was much, quieter n more peaceful than e ppl i'm ard now...guess it's e sch culture, e girls r groomed to be demure n all since young...thus, u hardly get such attention seeking speakers ard...but in jc, it's a diff story...everyone comes from a diff background, we grew up in diff env n were taught to behave diff...tt's y, when i first came to jc, i couldn't stand ppl who were exceptionally loud...found them to be esp irritating...but gradually, e tolerance level to such ppl haf increased...there r fewer of them who get on my nerves now, although e extreme cases still do sometimes...but i've grown to accept them, n juz look beyond e sound they produce...yup, n sophia is 1 of them...found her to be pretty offensive at e beginning, but now, my impression of her is improving...

went dutifully for training tdy...gosh, haven't trained so hard in a v long time...juz kept on hitting ball aft ball aft ball...stopped for 15 mins during break, n continued hitting e balls again aft tt..whew...gd workout man...had great ball sense tdy...it's juz one of those days when u can anticipate e shot ur opponent is going to strike betta, n judge e movement of e ball with more sense...so basically, u juz feel in more control of ur game compared to other days...n such days r rare n hard to come by...

anw, grace'll be coming over to nj for tennis match tmr, so will shun n manling for softball...shud be quite fun getting to see all of them again...haha:) n tmr is council elections!! such a drag...really feel like getting an mc for tmr, but i guess i'll go, cos they'll all be down at nj...it's not tt often tt u get everyone coming down to nj right?? haha

den was sick tdy, n fel had choir rehearsal in e morn, so it was juz e 2 of us e whole morn. fel came back halfway during chem prac...so clever..haha:)

all those who had e, o or f's for their CTs had to stay back during e sci period...well, i was 1 of e lucky few...gosh...haf to do extra assignments every wkend now, plus muz keep this journal to update e tutors of wad work i've done over e wk n all...alamak, so lei chey!! accompanied bek to queensway aft tt to collect her socks...haha, ended up spending more time than expected there, cos she saw this pair of nike sneakers which she fell in love with at first sight...haha, in e end, she din buy e shoe, cos it juz din fit!! dropped by cold storage at kap on our way back for her to buy dinner...ending up buying this box of chocs!! it was a real bargain...from $24 reduced to $5!! a offer to great to be missed!!! so we snacked on e box all e way back, but it was too rich...got sick of it aft quite a few pieces...

went down swimming aft tt...felt so fat aft e sinful treat!! haha, hopefully, tt'll help to shave off some fats, if not ALL!! haha...feeling so tired aft e swim tdy...going to slp now...night

oh man, e wkend's over n i havne't done any hw yet!! oh dear dear dear!!

anyway, yest met up w lisa, dot n jas...haven't been to lisa's house in a very long while alr...she's still e same as b4...haha, how much can she possibly change in a few months right?? haha...so ya, e 3 of us talked a bit while waiting for jas...jas is so tanned now!! not as though she wasn't alr dark previously...black beauty eh...haha, all thanks to softball...guess i'll get to see her play when nj's playing vj...oh ya, there's a hc vs nj softball match this wed...also having a tennis match vs ac too!! haha, it's like having a mini reunion in nj!! can't wait to see everyone...

back to lisa's house...aft jas arrived, we started playing bridge till almost 10pm!! haha, tt's prob abt 5 hrs straight of bridge...reminded me of those overnight bridge sessions we used to haf...according to lisa, our longest bridge record was 18 hrs!! sounds like a feat!! whoa...we muz try to break it sometime soon!! play from sunrise till sunset, then sunrise again...haha, but muz find more ppl first though...yup, so my whole sat was devoted to bridge...haha...

tdy was dedicated to.....S.L.E.E.P.I.N.G!! haha, woke up early this morn to go east coast w bek...she bladed while i cycled, cos i suck at roller blading!! haha, anyway, we managed to cycle for an hr plus...had to leave earlier cos she had tuition...but it was gd exercise nonetheless...aft i got home, it was straight to e bed!! couldn't even remember whether i had bathed or not...went out for e wkly supermarket outing aft i got up...n i've been glued to e tv till now...haha, v relaxing wkend so far..but i feel so guilty, for not doing any work at all!! if only wkend can be spent this way, guilt-free...tt'll be paradise!! haha...

juz popping by now b4 training...haha, training started half an hr ago...but here i am, at e lib...slacking away...told them i went for e uni talk for fac of law...haha, imagine, celeste chai, e great lawyer...lol, when will tt day eva come??!! supposed to be doing my work now, but aiya, relax a little bit la...do so much will go crazy one los!!

coming to jc made me realise 1 thing...no matter how hard 1 studies, he/she might not get gd grades back in return. it's like sports...u dun neccesarily get e top prize juz cos u put in e most effort amongst all e players...ur achievements is not measured by how much effort u put in...there r so many other factors tt play a part! this is e first time, i'm actually working so hard for my studies...doing all my tutorials almost as faithfully as i can, paying attention during lect n tutorials...but wad do i get?? e worst grades i've ever seen in my entire life!! in e past, i din even haf to flip e tb to do well...but now, i study n mug like tt, putting my best foot forward...n wad do i get?? not even an A level pass!! my grades nv fell below a B in e past, but now, every paper i get back, i'm juz praying n hoping to pass it will do, n tt means, an E!! pathetic!! y muz e sch burst our ego n demoralise us?? i dun get it...trying to discourage us from studyin?? if this is part of their strategy, then i tink it's high time for them to engage a new strategist!!

den came over to swim yest...first time i went into e pool for many months...can't even remember e last time i went in to swim...but def not this yr...shud be more than half a yr ago...but it was fun, so gd to haf company ard to exercise together n chat. haha, she din wear her specs down, so she was half blind e whole while...we din do many laps la, prob abt 10 in all?? hee...by e time we washed up, it was 7 plus alr, time for dinner!! haha, but we went to look thru e pics mr loy took in taiwan...he's incredible!! took a grand total of 1020 pics!!! plus 7 video clips, e last clip of e farewell dinner lasted for 35 mins!! his memory space is huge!! haha, had a gd time laughing at all e pics together...mr loy kept on taking e vj teacher, his best fren ah...every few pics his face would pop up, n for some, the 2 would take e same pose together...haha, so gay!! seems more like his private collection than anything else!! hahaha:) n mr loy, he's such a dumbass!! got his priorities all WRONG!! instead of filming both our dance items, he only recorded Summernights, but not I Believe??!! i can't believe it!! we practiced e hardest for I Believe, but dun get e chance to see it!! n he, as e teacher in charge of us, it was his responsibility to film us!! but no, there was no clip, no pic even!! there was only Summernights!! n he still had time to take e other schs' performances!! argh!! but he din record our most impt performance!! make my blood boil!! n last time, i was filtering his pics until almost 1am to select e best of e lot!! haha:) am dropping dead in sch now, dying from fatigue!!

nothing much happened tdy in sch though...can't wait for terrible trainin to be over, so i can go home to rest n recharge!!


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tdy juz seemed to take forever to pass...i guess it was due to e humidity tt made it so unbearable...plus bio lab which made us sit there for 2 whole periods, staring at e t.s. of roots n stems...it felt like eternity...it was only 12 plus, but it felt like 3 pm alr...couldn't wait for e day to end...

finally got back my gp marks...according to ck, it's a b4. well, i guess i shud be contented. rene loh din come for pe tdy, so we ended up playing captain cum basketball...almost dehydrated under e heat...den wasn't feeling well aft tt...went back to class to rest...

had to go do e tip exhibition board aft tt, paste up all those pics to be put on display tmr...haha, menial task tt brought much joy...goin thru e photos brought back memories...gd n bad ones...but mostly gd, cos it's human nature to forget bad experiences, right? so those forgettable memories haf almost been completely deleted, if not, they remain vague in detail. haha, but it was pretty funny, cos majority of e pics came from bek's album, n i mean like 90% or more...haha, it looked more of bek's personal gallery, than an exhibition of our taiwan trip...almost 70% of e pics had her face in it, except for e scenic pics...hilarious, guess she'll haf a gd time removing all e blue tack from e pics...but yang hong is too much...din wanna contribute his pics, cos he only had 1 copy...are we any diff?? pls, he's so selfish!! he took e most pics during e whole trip, n i thot bek took a lot alr...he is no. 1, she's no. 2...e 2 snap everything n almost anything in sight...from ppl to trees...haha, u name it, they haf it! but we had so limited selection of photos, tt almost all had to be put up...haha, bek's photo albums were almost empty by e time we were done...then when we were admiring our hard work, n appreciating e photos, virginia came by...haha, we quickly scuttled away, in case she approached us out of curiousity...aiyo...heart attack lor...

split my skirt for e first time in my entire life tdy!! argh, so embarassing...luckily, no one paid any attention to it..hee...was at e oasis doing my work when i decided to relieve myself. nj's benches are unique cos they like to put 2 benches together n make movement onto n out of e bench extremely diff. so well, i ge kiang n thot tt i could juz stretch across e 2 benches to get out...alamak!! dunno my leg too short; or e skirt was too tight; or e bench was too wide, maybe it's a combi of all...but b4 i could stretch across to e other side, my skirt tore!! it was so loud i could hear e tear sound w my earphones on!! malu ah!! tink e couple sitting at e next bench heard it too, but tried not to look so as not to publically embarass me...to add salt to e wound, i tore it during e first period of e day...haha, such dumb luck!

i dunno if it's juz me, or does everyone else's character suddenly clash with mine?? haiz, seem to get irritated w everyone so easily nowadays...n i mean almost everyone...maybe e prob lies w me...am i getting overly impatient?? perhaps...or maybe i'm becoming antisocial, haha!!

somehow, tdy felt like e longest day, but 1 of e best days i've had in sch so far this yr...it was special in some ways, yet dreadful too. loved it, hated it...horrible start, better end...hopefully everyday'll be like tdy, juz dun start off as badly, pls

v short day in sch tdy...ran 6 rounds instead of 8 for pe...wa, so proud of myself...such a feat i havne't accomplished for a v long time alr! haha...gp was useless...can't stand my gp group mates...all losers...e gp rep, who's also in my grp, took my bk to read, n asked me to return it for him aft tt...so ungentlemanly...din even ask for my permission b4hand...wanted to scold them all for changin topic last wk w/o informing me, wasting my effort doing all e research on stalin...but decided against it, din wanna make things ugly...so juz sat there, n read my TIMES mag on e pope...haha:) bio tutorial was cancelled cos pd wanted to use e time to mark our CT...so sch ended exceptionally early at 12.30pm!! haha, felt so lost, cos i had no programmes on aft sch...

played bridge w den, fel n ck until abt 1 plus, when fel n ck wanted to go back home n rest...so me n den were hunting n scouring e whole sch for propective bridge khakis...but we couldnt' find anyone!! only managed to nab nicholas, which wasn't enuf!! so we gave up in e end, n went kap for lunch...there, we continued calling ppl to play bridge w us...haha, so desperate...in e end, we got her bowling junior n sab...went back to e sch lib to play...wa...it was thrilling!! cos we were in constant fear of getting caught by e librarian...n sab was pretty blur...haha, couldn't stop laughing e whole while...e best round came with one of my worst possible hand...i only had 4 pathetic pts-1 A of hearts...but i had 7 hearts...somehow, i bidded till 5 hearts!! haha, so risky...lucky, den had gd cards which complemented mine...we were almost on e verge of losing e game...haha, it was such a memorable win!! haven't won a 5 bid in ages...great great game!! haha...

they had to leave at 4.30pm, cos 1 had cca while e other had lesson...so we were back to our endless search...proceeded to e canteen to try our luck...haha, met yang hong there...called bek to join us...managed to play 2 hands b4 they both had to leave...so well, no more luck aft tt...

but this whole day was juz dedicated to bridge...haha...haven't had so much bridge in a single day for a v long time...ever since lisa n val left...no more overnight bridge sessions anymore...sigh...haha, but we shud do this more often...play w diff bridgers each time...more excitement as their styles are all diff...it's adrenalin-pumping la...felt so tired aft e lib bridge session...haha...hopefully there'll be more days like this in sch...then maybe i'll start looking forward to going to sch everyday...hahaha:)

another forgettable day in sch...

fel got her bio marks back, cos ducro asked for it...quite a few other ppl whose CTs requested for their marks got their grades back as well...she din do too well...affected her mood e whole day...dunno how to comfort her also...ran out of words to say i guess...plus i'm not a great comforter too...rather not be e one comforting others, who knows i might make them feel even worse...hee, guess this sacred task was left to den, but she also couldn't help fel much...juz hope tt she'll get over it soon, n be back to her usual self:)

almost ran into virginia during lunch...freakz!! cos i was walking towards her direction, w/o realising tt she was juz nearby, cos she was blocked by e pillar...when i saw her, it was like a reflex action...first thing tt came to my mind was: siam!! haha, so i turned away n quickly ran away...ok, it wasn't exactly a run, more like a hurried walk, or a dash for cover!! haha...waited for her to walk away b4 i dared to return to tt corner of e canteen.

went for e med nus talk aft sch...not exactly aft sch...juz did my tutorials at e canteen during e free time...med is so hard to get in...n it's a real demanding job!! dun tink i'm up for it, all e sleepless nights mugging, low pay, n all...it doesn't suit me...i'm not compassionate enuf to want to care for all my patients-to-be, nor am i tolerant enuf to not mind getting disturbed n called back to e hospital in e middle of e night to attend to any emergency cases. well, yes, a doc is a prestigious job, which has financial security, but it also requires a lot from e doc. so well, dun tink tt'll ever be my direction in life. also, it's NOT NOT NOT easy to get in at all...out of e 4000-5000 applications they get every yr, only 600-700 are shortlisted for an interview, with only 230 making e cut aft all e rounds of interviews n tests n all...whoa man!! it's really e creme of e crop tt gets selected...dun even tink i'd be able to make e cut...haha, time to find alternative uni courses now...but i dunno which one...n y din they haf any refreshments aft e talk??!! so cheapo!! haha, fine, guess i'm being equally cheapskate myself...

went for training aft tt...got so pissed off, esp by serhong!! din wanna tell her, but i guess she could sorta tell by my facial expressions!! shan't elaborate further, juz glad i managed to keep my cool...

juz feel like running away sometimes, n escape from everything...

juz hate going to sch nowadays...

dis morn, woke up earlier to go sch earlier...who knows, my dear sis delayed everyone. dilly dally, make e whole family wait for her...i din wake up early to wait for her to get ready for sch...shud haf juz left w/o her...

ducro looked for den, ck n me tdy during our lunch, gave us a heart attack!! cos usually when he looks for us, esp when it's e 3 of us only, it's nothing gd. turned out, he only wanted to give us our new verification slip to sign...chey...no wonder my blood pressure is rising...

since we had extra time, thot we'd go back to class to play bridge again...who knows, teo came in early, so our game had to end prematurely...but me n den wanted to play somemore, so called ck n fel over to ta 13 to play...but they refused...out of desperation, we hijacked sophia n serhong on their way to class...haha...it's quite fun playing with newer ppl...more unpredictable playing style n strategy...pretty exciting

went for e psychology talk aft sch...at least now i konw tt psychology in nus isn't suitable for me...it's not well-established yet...a bit lost as to wad i wan to do in uni now...everything doesn't seem right...slept e whole aftnoon away...feel so guilty now, but dun wanna do any work too...gosh...tink i betta sit myself down n do some revision/tutorials tmr...

can feel myself mood-swinging nowadays...getting irritated v easily...but i'm trying to control myself, try not to show it...cos it'll look like i'm kicking a fuss out of nothing, it's true.

grace: hey piggy, go write something on our blog k. password is: wearepretty. haha, no prizes for guessing who came up with it:)

finally dropped my bio S tdy, it's official now, juz hope i won't end up regretting my decision in e future. but if i'm not goin to do well in it, i'll juz be wasting my time, money n energy on it. so i might as well juz make a clean break from it, rather than let it drag on till e As. hopefully i made e right decision...but i'll be sticking with maths S though...give it a go...ya...

could actually konw my bio S marks tdy, cos they gave e bio S ppl privilege. cos with our marks, we could gauge ourselves betta, n decide whether or not to continue with bio S, but it came a little too late...so din bother finding it out since i've decided to drop it alr...will juz get my marks back w everyone else...ignorance is bliss, esp in this sense...haha

played some more bridge tdy...but not much luck...juz average...some wins some loses...still haven't gotten sick of e game aft so long...haha...pretty amazing...

had pe tdy...loh was being his usual self, 4eva so hypocritical n critical with his words...tok wad rubbish abt me being a model in spring costume, juz cos i was slow n taking my time to get into position...haha, nvm, at least i'm helpful in releasing stress...shan't bother myself too much over his comments...

went to queensway aft sch to get turf shoes...ended up buying e wrong shoe, muz go down tmr n change it...betta not do it too late, in case e guy forgets me...but i muz say, i'm juz v amazed by den...she's psychic!! can read me like a bk, everything i do, maybe even think, she can tell w/o me having to tell her abt it...i'm juz shocked by how well she knows me...haha...this isn't e 1st time alr!!

tmr's another long day...tutorial for every subj...haiz, no free period somemore...plus there's uni talks aft sch...juz hope it'll pass faster than tdy did

oh wells, got back chem paper tdy...wasn't too bad, at least i passed, got a C, so i'm ok with it, cos i studied v hard for it...so ya, not too disappointed...but fel, dun be too upset k?? this grade isn't even counted, so dun let it affect u too much ya:)

got back another test result tdy, e BTT...sigh, i failed, sadly...muz retake!! aiyo...they din even show my score, dunno how badly i failed by...but their passing mark is 45/50, so well, not tt easy too...now i know why e army guy next to me was so precarious, doing it so carefully, reading every option with care. haha, he muz haf failed b4...well, i'm in his league now:) haha...i thot i did pretty well la, might even get full marks...so crap...muz go down again n redo it, such a waste of time n money!! this yr is juz a bad yr, everything's juz not going right, unlike last time...juz hope this yr will pass by quickly...n maybe, next yr'll be a betta yr...juz dun let anything affect my As will do...

went for e 8pm mass tdy...to mourn for e pope...it wasn't really diff from e normal mass, juz tt all e prayers were for e pope instead of all e poor ppl n tsunami victims n all...there was this little girl sitting at e row behind, whom was so intrigued by e badges on my bag...haha, she kept coming over to look at them, but her parents kept draggin her away...haiyo, i'm also not going to eat her up wad...so scared dunnno for wad...e guy next to me teared when mass was over...haha, dun tink i'd ever reach a similar emotional level as him, dun feel tt much for e pope yet...mass ended pretty late, at abt 9.15 i tink...

told my parents abt me wanting to drop bio S...they din object much...so ya, tink i'm dropping it...told my mum all my marks, she seemed pretty ok with it...complained to her abt AL too, n wad an arrogant ass he was e whole day..first in chem lab, when he wanted to compare with amos's marks, den during e sci block when e teachers were going thru ans...getting on everyone's nerves i tell u...ego pig...someone shud juz tell him to shut his trap!

played bridge during e breaks tdy, despite risking getting caught by e MOE officers...wa, so fun!! could feel all e adrenalin flow!! some of e rounds were thrilling...always a close victory/defeat, dangerous bids...haha, n i kept getting 3 As for a lot of rounds, not as though it was a sure-win thing, but i din realise it until den highlighted it to me...haha

such a gloomy day e whole day was, downpour aft downpour aft downpour...e LT was freezing!! almost turned into an icicle!! stupid nj, on days when it's hot n humid, they turn down e air-con; n on days when e weather is so cold, they turn it up!!

got trainin again tmr...it's a friendly with tj i think, not too sure who e other party is also...hmm, i'll juz be at 'chem S lect' as usual, n maybe not go for it, y bother wasting my time, n maluing myself in e process right?! ya, tt's e plan...plus champagne's not coming tmr, so some more free periods!! yay yay, plus i'll juz assume tt there's no trainin aft sch...hmm...life's getting betta now...heh:)


grace: wa, u're so longwinded!! y dun u go write something on my other private blog too, haha, since u got e time...so confused abt my S papers now!! ya, u told me e other time tt u dropped phy alr...u damn gd la, nv hear of ppl taking 3 subjs plus 1 s paper...haha, no wonder u din call to disturb me abt phy spa...k k, enuf for now, take care:)

so fast, e wkend is over once more...

went to my cousin's house yest, cos her hamster gave birth to another 5 baby hamsters again!! haha, they were so puny, so red, so adorable!! really looked like gummy bears...can juz pop them into e mouth n swallow them down!! haha...

din wanna go for piano this morn...still v confused, n reluctant abt it. i tink i'm goin to quit piano, cos i'm not even practising now, wad for waste e money. if e interest comes back, den maybe i'll resume aft As, when i got some time to spend on it.

went down to read e newspaper tdy...finally got to do it aft so many days of wanting to do so...heard abt e pope's demise later during e day...not much feeling, juz a little sad. cos although e news n everyone says he's a great man, n i'm sure he is, i was still too young to witness all his great accomplishments...so ya, dun really feel much for him, but juz pray tt he'll rest in peace:) hmm, wonder who e new pope will be...

din do much tdy, finally packed my room...it's so much neater now, at least all e papers, or most of it, is neatly packed away...whew!!

getting back chem paper tmr...wonder how i did...dun dare hope for too much...juz had a bad experience w math paper, so a little apprehensive now. maybe, a pass will do.

dread going back to sch tmr!! when can i stop going to tt hateful place, see those irritating faces, n juz be able to leave it all?? argh? when when when??

finally, e wk has ended...got e wkend to relax now...

only got back 2 papers so far...phy n math...phy got 07/08, but it was expected, paper was really hard...however, math was a disaster!! totally screwed it up...even teo was suaning me!! but i can't blame anyone else i guess...my fault for not studying for it, n getting too over-confident n complacent. nvm, shan't continue to get upset by it, cos i can't change anything abt it! i'm juz going to study real hard for it next time, n make sure i get my A back!!

yest's meeting with virginia went betta than expected. i got so freaked out for nothing. wore all my buttons, my pin, took out my 2nd ear stick(juz in case), wore white socks, n...tucked in my uni!! wa, first time i'm actually in PROPER uni, as she terms it. she was so impressed by my dressing...even praised me for it..haha...den all she said was e polo t-shirt vender would be coming down tmr(tdy), so she asked me to go n change my shirt...our meeting lasted for less than 20 secs...din haf to use any stories i thot of e day b4...haha, luckily...otherwise i'd haf to lie in front of so many ppl, not sure if my face'll give it away...whew...at least it's over now

but i ran into virginia again this morn!! can't believe how frequently i keep meeting her!! am i really so fated with her?? got so frightened when i saw her, cos my uni was untucked, no buttons, no pins, everything la! juz breaking all e rules. she came up to me n bek. then she said something like,"which one of u is supposed to see me?" then bek was like, mememememe...so when her attention was diverted, i quickly slipped away to e hall. wa...how did she manage to recognise us?? i hope she has short-term memory leh...din mean to abandon bek n leave her in e lurch... but i can't afford to let her catch me again...otherwise, i'd get into deeper trouble...

came back home v early tdy, there was no one else at home...when to bed immediately, n by e time i woke up, it was 6 plus alr. so went to return my dvds, n buy some drinks from cold storage. wah, can't believe it, those few drinks weighed a ton!! had to lug them up n down e overhead bridge somemore!! really gd exercise, was sweating like mad when i got home...

tdy's april fool's day...but no one played any joke...such a pity...din even rmb it was april fool's till fel told me i think...y is life so dead now, esp in jc?? is everyone juz so stressed out tt no one actually bothers to celebrate april fool's?? used to look 4ward to this day back in sec sch. still rmb once, christina brought a mask to scare amanda, but she decided not to be so mean aft all. instead, she juz showed amanda e mask, but it was enuf to freak amanda out, n she started screaming during math lesson!! haha...doesn't anyone haf any sense of humour anymore??


grace: hey piggy!! next time juz use abbreviation for ur name will do, like Gong, haha, dun need to type out ur full name. lol, haven't had a chance to use e pool chair yet, so embarassing la!! n wad secret blog me n char haf? dun tok rubbish ah...if it's secret, u tink we'd let u find out abt it so easily??!! haha...tt day bad mood la, so a bit vulgar los...val still hasnt' contacted me yet la!! this sort of fren...i'm juz gonna pretend i dunno she's back in sg n see when she'll contact me...oh man...how come she's losing weight?? not fair!! haha, look at serene yeo, she doesn't seem to be losing weight overseas though...haha

char:hey dear...u muz be v lonely being in aus all by urself...haiz, juz v down on my luck now la...tt day v bad mood...but it's betta now...go see our blog...i've updated it:)

bek: eh, wad u mean u wonder y u're agreeing with me?? u betta!! since we both got into trouble together...haha, of cos compared to u, it's milder la...but u dun hear me swear tt often wad...this is prob e 1st, n 1 of e v few times u eva hear me swear...sucks la, dis morn ran into virginia again!! hope she din recognise me, or else...uh oh...n sorry for abandoning u dis morn ah, couldn't afford to get into trouble w virginia again, din haf much of a choice...

finally, e wk has ended...got e wkend to relax now...

only got back 2 papers so far...phy n math...phy got 07/08, but it was expected, paper was really hard...however, math was a disaster!! totally screwed it up...even teo was suaning me!! but i can't blame anyone else i guess...my fault for not studying for it, n getting too over-confident n complacent. nvm, shan't continue to get upset by it, cos i can't change anything abt it! i'm juz going to study real hard for it next time, n make sure i get my A back!!

yest's meeting with virginia went betta than expected. i got so freaked out for nothing. wore all my buttons, my pin, took out my 2nd ear stick(juz in case), wore white socks, n...tucked in my uni!! wa, first time i'm actually in PROPER uni, as she terms it. she was so impressed by my dressing...even praised me for it..haha...den all she said was e polo t-shirt vender would be coming down tmr(tdy), so she asked me to go n change my shirt...our meeting lasted for less than 20 secs...din haf to use any stories i thot of e day b4...haha, luckily...otherwise i'd haf to lie in front of so many ppl, not sure if my face'll give it away...whew...at least it's over now

but i ran into virginia again this morn!! can't believe how frequently i keep meeting her!! am i really so fated with her?? got so frightened when i saw her, cos my uni was untucked, no buttons, no pins, everything la! juz breaking all e rules. she came up to me n bek. then she said something like,"which one of u is supposed to see me?" then bek was like, mememememe...so when her attention was diverted, i quickly slipped away to e hall. wa...how did she manage to recognise us?? i hope she has short-term memory leh...din mean to abandon bek n leave her in e lurch... but i can't afford to let her catch me again...otherwise, i'd get into deeper trouble...

came back home v early tdy, there was no one else at home...when to bed immediately, n by e time i woke up, it was 6 plus alr. so went to return my dvds, n buy some drinks from cold storage. wah, can't believe it, those few drinks weighed a ton!! had to lug them up n down e overhead bridge somemore!! really gd exercise, was sweating like mad when i got home...

tdy's april fool's day...but no one played any joke...such a pity...din even rmb it was april fool's till fel told me i think...y is life so dead now, esp in jc?? is everyone juz so stressed out tt no one actually bothers to celebrate april fool's?? used to look 4ward to this day back in sec sch. still rmb once, christina brought a mask to scare amanda, but she decided not to be so mean aft all. instead, she juz showed amanda e mask, but it was enuf to freak amanda out, n she started screaming during math lesson!! haha...doesn't anyone haf any sense of humour anymore??


grace: hey piggy!! next time juz use abbreviation for ur name will do, like Gong, haha, dun need to type out ur full name. lol, haven't had a chance to use e pool chair yet, so embarassing la!! n wad secret blog me n char haf? dun tok rubbish ah...if it's secret, u tink we'd let u find out abt it so easily??!! haha...tt day bad mood la, so a bit vulgar los...val still hasnt' contacted me yet la!! this sort of fren...i'm juz gonna pretend i dunno she's back in sg n see when she'll contact me...oh man...how come she's losing weight?? not fair!! haha, look at serene yeo, she doesn't seem to be losing weight overseas though...haha

char:hey dear...u muz be v lonely being in aus all by urself...haiz, juz v down on my luck now la...tt day v bad mood...but it's betta now...go see our blog...i've updated it:)

bek: eh, wad u mean u wonder y u're agreeing with me?? u betta!! since we both got into trouble together...haha, of cos compared to u, it's milder la...but u dun hear me swear tt often wad...this is prob e 1st, n 1 of e v few times u eva hear me swear...sucks la, dis morn ran into virginia again!! hope she din recognise me, or else...uh oh...n sorry for abandoning u dis morn ah, couldn't afford to get into trouble w virginia again, din haf much of a choice...