Friday, December 09, 2005
tdy was juz a terrible day. juz let me do some mad-woman ranting n i'll be fine.
do u know what i felt when i called tdy?? disappointment. cos u din bother asking abt me at all. worse, u started reprimanding me. there are times when i feel like running away from reality too, when all the shit in life becomes overbearing. i appear non-chalant towards stuff and always laughs n jokes, but tt may be juz a facade. like always, i never lose my temper at you. when all my supports are torn down, i thot i could look to u for help. tdy i realised tt u were, n will nv b there for me, as much as i try to be there for you. seriously, how often haf i tried to be there for u when u needed help? yet when i look to u for something i've given, u're not there. i'm indignant. u nv pay any attention to the words i say, u nv do. tt's y there's always an endless row of misunderstandings between us. who can i blame? u're always half-hearted in the things u do, esp when it's related to me. frankly, i feel like i'm being taken for granted. dun always assume i'll be there. i'll turn my back on you one day too. on the phone, u juz rattled on, and on, and on. i was really pissed off. but i juz din wan to pick a fight, tt's y i juz went with everything you said. u dun evn care abt my feelings, all u care abt is how much trouble it was to you. irresponsible, who are u to use the word?! who's the one who's constantly dishonouring her words; changing plans at will w/o consideration of other's feelings; does everything to suit her personal gains? i din retaliate becos i'm afraid things will sour. u're always so adamant abt ur thinking. in the end, u imagine me saying words i din, juz cos u wish for it to be tt way. i've really really had enuf of it. if only u weren't so selfish and disappointing, i'd haf offered to help. instead, i juz kept my mouth shut. why shud i bother abt someone who doesn't care?
maybe tdy's juz the trigger. my foul mood made everything worse. u'll nv be understanding towards me. i'm always the one accomodating and adjusting. gratefulness. go learn the term from the dictionary, it's a gd word u forgot to learn in sch. dun come shouting at me over the phone when u haf no such right!! u're in no position, neither do u haf such authority. so shut up and start doing some reflections.
argh...ok, i've cooled down slightly now. who knows, i'll come up with a part 2 tmr!! haha...
do u know what i felt when i called tdy?? disappointment. cos u din bother asking abt me at all. worse, u started reprimanding me. there are times when i feel like running away from reality too, when all the shit in life becomes overbearing. i appear non-chalant towards stuff and always laughs n jokes, but tt may be juz a facade. like always, i never lose my temper at you. when all my supports are torn down, i thot i could look to u for help. tdy i realised tt u were, n will nv b there for me, as much as i try to be there for you. seriously, how often haf i tried to be there for u when u needed help? yet when i look to u for something i've given, u're not there. i'm indignant. u nv pay any attention to the words i say, u nv do. tt's y there's always an endless row of misunderstandings between us. who can i blame? u're always half-hearted in the things u do, esp when it's related to me. frankly, i feel like i'm being taken for granted. dun always assume i'll be there. i'll turn my back on you one day too. on the phone, u juz rattled on, and on, and on. i was really pissed off. but i juz din wan to pick a fight, tt's y i juz went with everything you said. u dun evn care abt my feelings, all u care abt is how much trouble it was to you. irresponsible, who are u to use the word?! who's the one who's constantly dishonouring her words; changing plans at will w/o consideration of other's feelings; does everything to suit her personal gains? i din retaliate becos i'm afraid things will sour. u're always so adamant abt ur thinking. in the end, u imagine me saying words i din, juz cos u wish for it to be tt way. i've really really had enuf of it. if only u weren't so selfish and disappointing, i'd haf offered to help. instead, i juz kept my mouth shut. why shud i bother abt someone who doesn't care?
maybe tdy's juz the trigger. my foul mood made everything worse. u'll nv be understanding towards me. i'm always the one accomodating and adjusting. gratefulness. go learn the term from the dictionary, it's a gd word u forgot to learn in sch. dun come shouting at me over the phone when u haf no such right!! u're in no position, neither do u haf such authority. so shut up and start doing some reflections.
argh...ok, i've cooled down slightly now. who knows, i'll come up with a part 2 tmr!! haha...
the slack one went to rest at 6:24 AM
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